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As soon as I saw Straight Boys on your best of the freakin best list, I knew it was valid♥️

Gosh so many updates at once. I had it as one big message but there's a character limit ._. 
          So, if anyone reads this, howve you been? I hope life's treating you well and fair. These crazy times we're in have gone from worrying to scary and I hope there will be improvement. I hope all my wattpad friends succeed in life. Take care <3

I've also come to the frightening realization that everything I've said on this account is like... public shit that anyone can see and that people will still be able to see even after I've finally deleted my app. Wattpad is huge now and not the little app i originally joined to read stories about my favorite characters. I've been getting into fandom history and lore of fandoms that I was along side but never joined (like supernatural), and it was kinda scary to realize that I'm listening to someone talk abt the olden days of forum boards and things that are only there in memories just like I am with wattpad, tumblr, older insta, kik, etc . Or how the people she was talking abt were only teens back when it happened but are now parents and how I've grown a lot too and someday I'll probably be the parent that was on the weird side of the internet at a too young age. Weird to think about sorry for ramblings. I used to use this account to ramble and vent in the updates, so it's fitting.

N e ways main story is I've been reading THROAM again... yes.... THE throam and it had me thinking like damn.. I read that back on live journal when I was like 13, still struggling w internalized homophobia and I'm reading it the 3rd time (on ao3) as a 20 year old basically adult. The amount of shit in my life that has changed that I wouldve never expected since I last read it. Like at this point I don't care if people find out I'm bi or nb, but when I first read THROAM I was shocked that Brendon could be so open through homophobia whereas I was hiding in homophobia. I decided in middle school to never actual have a big "coming out," and to just come out if it comes up because of some stupid homophobic kids, which the one guy who tormented me with slurs (my best friend beat him up for it lol) turned out to be the twink of the class. Odd story, but I say it bc wow how the times have changed between when reading. The last time I read throam gay marriage was illegal! Reading throam again has me wanting to be more open, but back then it made me want to hide more. Also, there's sooo many small details that reading back I'm like omg that comes into play in the later volumes (mindblown). Such an odd think piece to have over some gay rock n roll au, sorry. I'm just thinking abt gay history I've lived through. 

While I'm still logged on, I'm getting my mcr tattoo next week!! I've had the appointment scheduled for awhile now and im so excited I've been very patient. It'll be my 5th studio done tattoo, I have a few stick n pokes tho lmao, and I also now have 15 piercings woaahh.

Heyy besties, it's your older brother here long time no see hope everyone is doing well
          I just stumbled across something interesting that Paramount and Wattpad are teaming up to find new movie ideas and just speaking as an older brother here to all my lovely writers, please be very weary
          In the latest wattpad update, the tos have changed that wattpad now owns the rights to stories as opposed to the writers like it was back in my day, which honestly pisses me off so much (I have not agreed or read the new TOS, so I'm basing it off of talking with current wattpad users, it sounds like they can't sell your story without permission so if approached, please be cautious and if you agree GET THAT PAYCHECK!!!)
          Everything has turned to profit recently and honestly be suspicious, I highly doubt paramount will properly credit the writer or even work with them and compensate as well as they should, especially now that wattpad has forced people to agree that they no longer have their own story rights
          I just saw the news and it was posted 17h ago, so still fresh. We'll see how this thing goes, but I just wanted to warn people in case. Be protective of your writing and material!! Don't settle for bare minimum compensation and don't let corporations string you along, be strong arm emoji

Omg my account is 8 years old now
          That's a third grader :0

Happy pride month !
          I've been listening to a lot of mcr recently and it's got me reminiscing. Also, I've decided I'm gonna get mcr inspired tattoos, no way about it no shame to it, the designs I've created will look great with my existing tattoos and theme. 
          
          Also,,, wattpad won't even let me view notifications if they're from a paid story and that just stinks of corporate greed. I commented and supported YEARS ago when the story was still being written and now i can't even see why have a bunch of notifs for the story? I already freely read the damn story. Capitalism ruins apps.

Went on here bc I saw a Twitter thread of everyone dropping their fav wattpad comments and none of them had me in it
          Feeling: hurt 

Took exactly 31 mins to go thru my notifs lol didn't go thru my DMs but did notice someone messaged me with a "publication offering" to message them abt publishing my works lol . No . Anyways, hope everyone's well