Hi. I know you won’t get this, since this account is already shutdown. But I just wanted to say all I couldn’t have said beforehand.
I’m sorry. I know this won’t fix anything, apologising when it’s already way too late. But I’m really sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you like you were for me. I’m sorry for being a liar, for saying I wouldn’t leave you like the rest, only for me to do so. I’m sorry I’m such a coward. I’m sorry for staying quiet, for silently watching everything happen but not doing anything to stop it because I was too scared. I’m sorry for being so selfish, for forcing you to slowly pick yourself back up just for me. I’m sorry for ignoring you all that time, for my stupid thoughts telling me I would just bother you.
And I know you probably hate me. I know that wherever you are, you’re better off without me. You’re better off not being with a horrible person like me.
I just wanted to say...you’re the greatest sister I could ever ask for. You can’t say the same for me, I know. You probably don’t consider me as one, after all I’ve done.
If you do somehow see this, I know you’d probably think I’m going to do...all of that, again.
But don’t worry, I won’t. I’m not letting you go through all that again. I just wanted to say all of this. After, I’ll leave you alone. I won’t bother you again, no matter how much I want to talk to you.
Goodbye, sis.