n0_thnks
whats up fuckers
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oh my goodness it's been a while
n0_thnks
hi
n0_thnks
@prettyriot a little tired and my phone for some reason is not turning on :)) how about u? are u doing ok?
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sorry for disappearing off the face of the earth just to randomly come out as trans and venting but im in a really awful mental state right now and i have almost no one i feel safe enough to confide in so
titanvv
@n0_thnks | it’s okay, don’t apologize for that. i hope everything gets better soon max :( <3
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my pronouns change but they/he/she is fine and my name is max. do not refer to me as anything else. i will change my bio later i can't atm
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this message may be offensive
i came out as trans/genderfluid recently and my mom knows and ig shes ok with it but she tried to use the right pronouns maybe once and tried to use my name a couple times and stopped. i feel really isolated all the time and it's like she just doesn't care about my identity at all and completely disregards it. i asked her pretty explicitly not to use gendered terms for me and she keeps doing it.
i don't have anybody else i can come to and i just don't really feel celebrated or respected. i don't feel like i have a safe space in my own home anymore. "why do you want to label things? why do you have to label yourself?" why are YOU telling ME how to feel about MY identity? why do YOU think YOU understand what it's like to live in a world that doesn't fucking want you? i get it, i do, but you remind me all the time that you don't really care about how i feel or about my identity at all and wonder why i get so upset. i feel free completely alone! and you keep reminding me that i am, even if you don't mean to!
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i love my mom and everything i really do, she's a good person and i don't mean to be so volatile about something that's probably small in retrospect but im just really upset and i don't feel like myself right now. sorry if this came off as disrespectful to anyone <3
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i have written 5 chapters of a new fic and it totals to over 8500 words. in 3 days. i am a god. bow to me.
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me to all my comfort characters:
being gay isn't your choice, it's mine. you're gay now.
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i am in love with bruno madrigal
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started watching security breach gameplays and not be another fatherless child but glamrock freddy is genuinely so comforting to me
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next chapter is done <3