yk yesterday i had an appointment for making appointments for getting tested on austism
and that lady there asked me 'has anyone ever brought this up before?' like did anyone ever think before i could be autistic (answer: yes, six year old me after reading a comic someone made about their experiences with austism as a child and relating to some of those) but like no one else
and it a) got me questioning if theres really anything there (ik its a specturm but like)
but also like im german. and if i do have autism its like mild. and we do communicate very directly, its literally part of our culture. so now it got me wondering if anyone wouldve considered it if i'd grown up somewhere else
also i mean theres people without anyone thinking they could be autistic who then get diagnosed in their 40s so
idk just been thinking abt it
huge chance im not btw but yeah thats for the thougths ive been thinking