*click*

Being single is boring yet fun at the same time seeing people flirt right next to you is annoying as heck

In bored i need someone to talk to hahaha

I really hate liars and thats how I came to hate my self .but really thought do you know how much it hurt for a person to lie to you, knowing that they have been lying to you the whole time hurts so much ,knowing the truth you tried to hide, and here I am patiently waiting for the time you tell me. But I guess that time won't ever come 
          
          hahaha I'm such an idiot really how could I accept someone if I myself can't accept the person who I am hahaha reading to much is really bad isn't it.

I'm aliveeeeeeeee

I'll be deactivating tomorrow.... That's final.... I think.... I'll hopefully come back when things get cool and if I eventually Learn to forgive my self... 

I had to post this in two parts since wattpad said that I had exceeded maximum characters so here the second part more drama to read I guess
          
          
          I might be deactivating this account in about..... a few hours, if your asking why, we'll it has nothing to do with this fucked decisions I made.... Or maybe it has anyway my mental and psychological health has been really bad this past few days? week? Maybe month? I don't know... One thing is for sure I should have never went on wattpad (wattpad has nothing to do with this? I think? But it's the people and decisions I made in it)
          
          
          I still wanted to say a lot to be honest but my tears have been asshole the whole time I was typing this, I wanted to thank a lot more people and say how sorry I am and stuff but yeah...
          
          @nabongsquirtlebunny officially signing off
          Hahaha just wanted to say that but yeah I'll be deactivating it in the about a 2 or 3 hours?
          
          So this is goodbye? Thankyou, I'm gonna miss you and I'm sorry 

*sigh* it's been about three months since I created this account, those three months might be short but it was like one of the best moment in my life though I did regret a few things (more of like a lot of things) and how I wished I never did those ,still I learned new stuff, I gained new friend,I gained new relationships, I got hurt and people comforted, I became confused but people helped me and gave me advice, hahaha also I'm really happy despite being useless and a really annoying person I was able to help other too, but what I hate about my self is that I mendle to much in people's personal lives, I ruined them I hurted them and they despise me or so I think they do.
          
          To all the people who helped me cheered me up and stayed with me thankyou very much it was a lot thankyou and to the people I helped I was nothing I feel like this the least that I can do for you guys. 
          
          To all those people I hurt or hated me I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I promised I did not want this, this was never my intention I know I know I fucked up I fucked up so bad,I did not know, I never knew if I only knew that it would be like this I wished I did not talk to you, I wished that what ever happened between us should have never happend, I called avoided getting hurt I could have avoiding seeing you hurt, it was my mistake I ruined you, I ruined them and I feel like It was all my fault, I feel like I did not deserve to live and to be happy
           

If I'm going to disappear no matter what, I at least want to leave them having fun and smiling.
          
          - Yoake Ryou

Nothing's going to change if you're just thinking about it. No matter how much you worry about someone else's problems.... you can't fix it for them.

Have you ever, for even a second, thought about how hard it is for people like me just to stay alive?