Eternity

I gotta force myself to write more. This computer stuff is just getting too complex. I like programming, but these programs are ridiculous. I won't be able to do this in 10 years time. If I write, I can enter some kind of world where I am in control. Stephen King said he was reading 3 hours a day and then writing 4 hours plus. I mean wow! that guy was serious man. Dude is serious. Now, he says he can write pretty well what he wants and the guy makes a fortune. And they make a movie about everything he writes. Wow!

I am just writing to exercise demons: frustrations, enviousness. I am actually a puddy-tat. To know me is to love me. Actually, I can't stand myself most of the time, but I can still write. When I was younger, thought Stephen King was the greatest show on earth. I admire his ability to write

I know I suck, but I still have one audience left that never leaves me: me! I can still vent with words. 

I like to read and write. I find that it satisfies me on some level. I am sick of browsing the internet and getting nothing back. I want to make something in my life, not just be a consumer. Nothing I have ever done has ever gone the way I wanted it, but I find that in this virtual world, someone has allowed me to paste some of myself here. For as long as this lasts, I can leave a piece of me here.