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uh hi this will probably end up kinda long but i forgot abt this acc and then i remembered it existed hhhn and i read a lot of my message post thingies here & chapters in my rant book and WOW i was an angsty piece of shit holy crap. i just wanna say i’m genuinely sorry to people who had to see me like this (it’s only been a couple of months since i was kinda active on here but i’m a lot more better now than how i was months ago) i was very fucking toxic and i’m rly sorry. i’m also p much not gonna b online anymore but i hope u all r doing good n that ur safe w ur loved ones <3 also that ur signing petitions & staying educated abt the things that r going on in the world rn!! that’s kinda all i wanted to say continue w ur day ig

everything’s making me emotional wHY

back from exams and i think i did ok bc the subjects were easy on the first day. but here i am, studying for the other subjects tom. which are hARDER now and i honestly feel like dying already kakskskssksksk

tomorrow’s exams and i’m not rEADY

i think i need to take a breather

SCHOOL IS SO DRAINING

update:
          
          highschool sucks, my acne is worsening, my classmates are ok but there’s like two guys here who really just piss me off hhHhhhhHH, and mmmm my family isn’t rly helping with any of this tbh 

i was so wrong about highschool tbh. i thought the people were gonna be the worst thing about it, and ik not ALL of them are gonna be nice, but the hardest thing about my new school rn is that it’s strict as fuck and it’s a really religious school and my family are expecting me to follow my sisters’ steps and get good grades like them but it’s only the second day and it’s already hard?? they already gave us shit to work on, and we have to do these extra ‘projects’ every week which is super unnecessary but they say ‘it’ll help us in the future’ or smth. i’m still VERY stressed (had a mental breakdown today, LOVE that for me) but for a completely different reason now and mmm my point still stands, highschool sucks but for me, it’s not really because of the people there (at least in my opinion since this is an asian school and people are somewhat nicer here).

guys i’m so nervous school is tomorrow fuck fuck i’ve been having a mental breakdown for the past week now, cried and stress ate a lot and then it’s finally time for my first day tomorrow at my new highschool jesus fuck i’m so nervous i wanted to stay up late to read fics (because fics always make me feel better about my life) but my mom’s here and she is literally watching me until i go to sleep which is super weird and creepy but yeah she’s watching me while i type this and im so nervous i just AAA FUCK SCHOOL SM NOBODY SHOULD HAVE TO FEEL THIS ANXIOUS FOR SCHOOL 

very stressed pls kill me