ナラハダ 🌻

arus bayu menghenyak perasaan di kala sunyi,
          sering menjatuhkan, malah membangkitkan jarang sekali.

it’s been awhile, and a lot has happened. well, more to write, i guess! yay! <3

2020, what’s good?

afraid of being hurt by someone, end up i’m the one that hurts you.

not afraid of death, just afraid that i might wake up and like nothing ever happened. realizing that no one cares even when i’m dead.

strangled by my own words. wished that it was strong enough to finally take my own breath away. 

“mungkin, tiada lagi aku.”

“andai perasaan bisa dibuang, sudah lama aku hidup tanpa perasaan. akal ini mungkin akan lebih berguna jika perasaan ini tiada.” 

“mungkin malam ini cengkerik seronok bernyanyi, menyambut malam yang barakah. dan mungkin malam ini, aku ditemani airmata dan rintihan rindu pada pujangga pujangga yang telah pergi namun takkan kembali.”

“rintihan awan memanggil ku, dia mahu selimuti aku dengan rasa sendu.”