saltiestbreadstick

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NAAAAAAATTTTTTHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what happened was:
          my mother and i got in to a HUGE friggin fight and i tryed to leave coz i was scared. she chased me for a bit ,so i droped my suitcase (wich, btw, had ALL of my shit in it so yah that y im wearing someones*Dawsons* superman blanket lol) so i went up to jaz and ddawsons and hung there for a bit, then went for a walk till like 10:00, then i saw a big ass coyote so i ran to ma neighbors house and was like "hey can i crash on your couch tonight?" so i stayed there and watched family guy and listened to music(From the ipod shuffle that Dawson gave me;) ) and woke up and went to school.
          now, let me tell u somethin. im not one who would ever even THINK of cutting, but my wrists are now bloody with cuts. i know that some of the reason that my mom is sick is coz of me, i realize that and take full reasonsibility. but i just want it to go bsck to the way it was.
          now i have no fuckin idea what to do now.
          i could either
          A. go to dezi's
          B. go home and hash it out
          C. go home and sneak in to grab ma stuff and then go to dezi's
          D. go home and find ma mom dead(i wouldnt put it past her not to commit suicide)
          E. go live in the woods and eat berrys with my squirrl friends
          i just wanna know that she's okay, that i didnt make her do that to her self. i feel so bad. ive NEVER EVER EVER ran away before yesterday.
          i realize that i contributed to what made her like this though