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Ok, I have not died yet but I’ve been really depressed lately and could not bring myself to write some of my ongoing stories. I didn’t give up on them, just had a mental block, so I went back to some of my older unpublished ones and started editing and finishing one of them. 
          I was excited to publish it soon and then work on my other stories but now I’m not so sure. 
          I was on Twitter and now feel like a bad person for reading fanfics, and worse, I write them!!!
          
          I am really self conscious of this older one I was going to publish too because it is a hybrid story, with smut. 
          I don’t know if I will now unless some of you want it? Maybe? I’m not sure. 
          
          
          But anyway, I feel like a shitty person for spending my sad existence making up stories like this. 
          Like, is it really a bad thing? Help me feel better so I can start writing again. 

So with this new Taeil development I’m thinking I will go through my current stories and change his name. Let me know what you think, and if I should just delete my one shots with him or change the name of the person? 

You guys, I’m crying literally. Wattpad took down my favorite and most popular short story, Legacy, Norenmin. I’m gutted. 
          In order for this not happen again, hopefully. I made sure to go back and put a mature rating on all of my stories with even the mildest smut.
          
          My intention of that story was to show that even after trauma and a life of abuse, a person could come back from that and love again. Of course I did this with a werewolf plot line and I’m not sure if it was just because of how it was rated or if it was for Renjun talking about his past life of abuse as a child or if it was some other factor. So for those of you who got to read it and enjoyed it, thank you. 
          My heart hurts. I put a lot of time and effort into these stories and now it’s just gone. I don’t have a rough draft anywhere to rewrite it, I do everything off the top of my head. 
          Maybe someday I’ll try another werewolf one with a milder plot line? I’m not sure. Anyway, thanks again for all of you who support my writing.

Just updated in my story, Phoenix, JohnTen. Working on getting back at it so I can finish it at some point. 
          

Thank you for writing cafe 7dream it’s literally the best renhyuck fanfic there is, it literally has everything  you’re very talented and just thank you for your writings 

Hey there , author !!! I just wanted to tell you that Irreplaceable is currently one of my favorite Nomin books out there !!! It has everything I want in a story , and I love how you have also given the other Dreamies interesting stories and relationships too !!! 
          You have me invested in everybody , and your writing is amazing . 
          Love you <333

Hey everyone, I just want to say thank you to everyone who reads my stuff and kind of give an update.
          So I’m currently trying to finish Irreplaceable (Nomin), then I will be hopefully going back to write maybe one more chapter or just an epilogue for Safe place(Markhyuck).  After that my aim is to finish up Back 2 you (Jaeyong) and Phoenix (Johnten) before working on my newer one called My everything(Kundery). This is obviously just a goal and hopefully I will stick to the order. 
          For everyone who reads anything I write, I deeply appreciate you. I’m not really good at communicating in the comment sections. I actually have a fear that you don’t want to hear what I have to say. It sounds dumb, I know but this is me. I write because I get ideas and hope you will love them and when you do, I feel great and when I can’t tell I get self conscious. I’ve contemplated removing my Nomin one for that reason. I knew it was a bit risky with the concept but I went for it. Now I’m too far along to take it down, but yeah, there was a time. Anyway (after an unnecessary long winded speech) I love you all so much and thank you again! 

Hey, thanks for adding my story to your reading list ♡