necroticintellect

I'm not sure where my obsession with writing Michael as some sort of conflicted little man in the 1900s stemmed but lmao, I was going through my drafts and that's the dominant core theme of everything. Even the romance attempts just slowly but surely weave themselves into emotional conflict

I have a new psychological hmm-inducing short story out! I'm currently working on the first chapter. If you're one of my readers of TSON and enjoy its style,  this new release may feel a little odd to you in terms of the overall difference of style. Taste the Devil strips away the controlled-story quality of TSON and is more flexible to personal perceptions. If you aren't weirded out yet and you're still reading... I hope to see you there *nerd emoji* 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/413381542-taste-the-devil

If you're a new writer, I really think the most precious gift you can give yourself is a failure. This has nothing to do with struggling to build an audience... it has to do with a general acceptance of failure. There's lots of fear around that word, but a craft of any kind can't evolve if you can't admit to yourself something isn't working.
          
          I can now personally admit that romance is just not something I'm the best at. Emphasis on 'now', because when I was 16-17, you couldn't tell me shit because I wasn't willing to tell myself I couldn't. Seasoned writers would give me pointers and I'd read them, but I really wasn't soaking it in because it deeply bothered me that I didn't just knock the ball out the park with my flowery spittle on the first shot haha. So, I went about... a year and a half stagnantly pumping out stuff that I didn't enjoy writing whatsoever simply because I couldn't just say "wow, this has been a failure, let me move on to other things"
          
          That little backstory wasn't to turn this into a diary lmaoo, it's to point out the damage in not allowing yourself trial and error! There HAS to be embarrassments, there HAS to be bumps in the road... and when you can't get over that bump and you find yourself stagnant, that's when you improve other areas. THEN, you may be equipped to tackle that "failure" and be able to call it a personal success down the road! Or maybe even just twisting your original plot into pretzels and seeing what works... you get my drift
          
          Moral of this yap... don't just throw in the pen because something isn't working. Lotttttttsssss of stuff won't work, but you can't find what will if you don't have your trial/error phase! You'd be surprised what branching out into starkly different stuff than you usually do can do for writer's block. A story that you never thought you'd continue writing can ignite again from trial/error exercises.

Pretty soon, I'll finally have some time to get READING AND COMMENTING! The social feed has really helped me find and take note of diamonds in the AI-slop haystack (our unfortunate current algorithm, lmaoo), and I'm more than ready to get into everyone's work *star struck emoji*

Michael's absence stings and will continue to sting, but there's also an underlying beauty to it beneath the pain. He's physically gone, but in the time he's been gone, he's even more present. Through various forms of art, through his various impacts of inspiration, community, fond memories, and fond connections. He's still here spiritually, and that's something that will never pass.
          
          I say "fond connections" because all of us in the MJ community have connected over Michael himself. His pure desires for joy and laughter to prevail in the world live on in every silly comment or silly message left on someone's message board. We're all here enjoying each other's creation and company through Michael, and that's the beauty. 
          
          His music, his personality, his wants, what he never got, his pain, and his passing all connect us through one way or another.. and the absence of his physical being doesn't disrupt that.
          
          Rest in peace, Michael! We love you. 

HAPPY BELATED JUNETEENTH!!!

Whenever I see an AI book cover, I feel e-ssaulted because why are you just blatantly slapping me in the face with the fact that the writing is 98% most likely AI too ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

@michaelslament well you seem to be awake now *R.I.P MAURICE INSTRUMENTAL * .....

I'm so desperate I will do olympic-level artistic swimming in berry gordy's stale-bootycheek bath water if @michaelslament just gives me ONE devourance chapter *weary emoji* 

@michaelslament but it's my birthday, you can't extend the deadline and spare a few CENTenses .......