neerubts7
They say it’s mind games, but I say it’s all the heart’s game.
Why does it have to be like this? I’m okay, I really feel like I am, but then why can’t I put my words together? Why can’t I sleep well? Why does it feel like something is void inside me?
I’m grateful for everything, but then why do I feel….I don’t even know how to explain it.
Above all, why do I feel insecure? I used to be insecure before, but not about the things I’m insecure about now. Something that once made me proud now makes me feel insecure.
When I think about it, maybe it’s because my heart associates and connects things that were never meant to be connected in the first place. Why does it associate people leaving with my worth? Why do I feel like I’m not enough? I know that’s not true, but it still feels that way.
Why do I wonder why I couldn’t do well? I keep doubting myself, if someone changes because of certain things, I start associating it with myself and underestimate who I am. Maybe it’s only me.
Sometimes we look okay and happy, like we’ve moved on, but then something triggers us and suddenly we act like our old self again. And that really pisses me off.
Now that I think about it, I feel like I’m disappointing you all too. The thing I started with so much happiness now makes me feel ashamed because I’m not doing it properly. I really want to write, and I even have so many ideas, but I can’t put my words together.
I don’t know why, I’m trying, but my mind feels like a mess
I just want to get over this....
I want to be ME again
neerubts7
@BTSARMYMP1418 ahhh my bunbun I'm backʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ, I'm on tears seeing thisss, thank you for this love it means a lot, how would I tell you, these things mean a lotttttt to meeeee ♡˖꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱ ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ (ʃƪ＾3＾）
BTSARMYMP1418
@neerubts7 Dayum.... Why are you thinking like this dumpling??? You are the best. You aren't disappointing anyone darling. Don't doubt yourself. You are the best. About the writing, take a break dumpling. You already have so much stress. Calm your mind. Relax. Give time for yourself only. Meditate. Talk about your worries to someone. Don't keep feeling hidden. Relax and believe that you can do it. Don't pressurize yourself. I know you are the best. I'm still waiting for you to talk. So don't you dare to think something like that. My dumpling is the best ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉﾞ
