Nele🤍

@_healingmyself_ I love you so much, send the vlogs, please.

@nelehzmm that's so not true, my love.
            You are the first choice for so many people, including me. 
            Maybe you're just looking in the wrong places? 
            Hoping for the wrong people to put you first, while others would drop everything for you? 
            Just because people might give you the space you've verbally and nonverbally demanded doesn't mean you're no longer in their minds and hearts. 
            I open Snapchat several times a day... itching to send you a mindless vlog.
            You are NOT a second option. At least not for me. 

@nelehzmm 
            
            Not true.

@ _healingmyself_  is okay, my love, no worries! Just wanted you to know I am sending you good thoughts ❤️

@_healingmyself_ thank you so much my love I’m sorry i didn see this, wattpad didn’t give me a notification ❤️

@_healingmyself_ 
            
            Thank you.. I'll make sure to reach out at a suitable time, but please don't wait.. I'm afraid it will take too long if I happen to still not contact you in any way before my vacation.

@ DandeLoveraa  we all make mistakes, sometimes we don’t wanna trust our gut, because the heart or mind doesn’t want it to be right...
            Please rest and take care of yourself too, okay? 
            Don't drown in selfblame or 'could have/ should have' spirals. 
            I really hope you are okay and I hope everything will work out fine. 
            And that we will maybe talk another time...only if you want?
            No worries if not. Totally get that. 
            Take care, Sending you good thoughts!

@_healingmyself_ 
            
            Thank you so much..this is the second biggest mistake I've made because I did not trust my gut. Lessons lessons I guess. Please have your rest, I'll pause this here.. I'm sure it all came so suddenly and went by too fast so it must've been quite overwhelming.

@_healingmyself_ I love you so much, thank you for eberything i really mean it, i really do.

@nelehzmm My love, I have no idea what gut feeling motivated me to log back into my Wattpad account today. 
            But apparently it was the right thing to do, because otherwise I would have missed this message. 
            
            I don't know who hurts you so much. 
            I have absolutely no idea what's bothering you so much right now, and I know there's absolutely nothing I can do to help you. 
            
            But I can't just let it go and think, "Not my problem." 
            
            I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to. 
            I'm here for you if there's anything I can do. 
            
            But I have no idea what I can do to help you right now. 
            I wish I were wiser and more insightful and knew exactly what to do. 
            
            But all that remains is: I love you so much, you're my little sis, and I don't want to lose you.
            I am here for you. 
            I am sorry if I hurt you by pulling away on here. That was never my intention. 
            
            So please, talk to someone, don't carry it yourself. 
            Let someone close to you, let someone in, love. 
            
            You deserve support and a safe space. 
            You deserve to stay. 
            You are not a burden. 
            <3