nerdyprudesmustdie
soo many things bother me
nerdyprudesmustdie
nerdyprudesmustdie
it's okay. i know you're scared of it wearing off. of the love and the obsession and the butterflies. do you know how i know?
nerdyprudesmustdie
i know because i know you well. whatever souls are made of, yours and mine are the same. i understand you.
nerdyprudesmustdie
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i had a weird sex dream where i was a vampire and fucking/being mean to/completely in love with jenna from wwdits, or rather a weird version of her, but it was definitely her. 60% of the dream was me, nadja, laszlo and nandor existing in a vampire mansion, setting it on fire, flying around as bats and hiding from the sun. 40% was me vampire-brainwashing jenna's college classmates who were in pe class (?) to not be able to speak anymore and also vampire-brainwashing her teacher to not know who jenna is so she could come to another room with me and i could fuck her.
weird.
nerdyprudesmustdie
i liked vampire-brainwashing jenna's college classmates though because i made them hit themselves
nerdyprudesmustdie
also what was kinda funny is that while i was going down on jenna i didn't know if i was doing a good job so i thought about the kind of fanfiction i'd read and SPECIFICALLY remembered a bellamione one where hermione was a virgin but sucked bellatrix's clit and that was apparently like. good. so i started doing that and jenna liked it
nerdyprudesmustdie
there was like. so many people there from the party. and they were all humans. and also monsters (but the humans didn't know that) and when i set it on fire, the humans started fleeing into the garden (it was nighttime), and the monsters ripped them apart. there weren't a lot of monsters, but i remember vampires and weird zombie-mummies. and a green version of freddy krueger. i watched the humans run and scream and get torn apart and get their heads ripped off and i did feel bad for them but i couldn't help them because i was a vampire and didn't wanna seem like a bitch
nerdyprudesmustdie
everyone claiming that all people with trypophobia are faking it for attention are so funny to me. i get the urge to tear off my skin and actually try to do it when i see a collection of tiny holes until i'm bleeding. but yes no it's for the tiktok attention
nibblenephim
my thing for blood is getting crazy actually. my lip was bleeding and i saw and MOANED :sob:
nerdyprudesmustdie
my friends have fulfilling relationships while i'm fantasizing about a fictional vampire it's okay i'm okay mentally i am doing just fine peachy really
nibblenephim
this is so crazy actually you can only get off thinking about a fictional vampire named the guide or your ex english teacher
nerdyprudesmustdie
i swear i just heard someone whisper lana
nerdyprudesmustdie
girl in red songs have been engraved into my my dna i can not get them out
nibblenephim
you, to me, are gritted teeth and clenched fists and carving your name into trees
nibblenephim
holding onto you for dear life, your blood covering us both, my teeth still in your neck - we look like a strange modern art piece
nerdyprudesmustdie
as long as she is here it is good. life can be good for you. no more clenched teeth for a while no more bloody fingernails