nerulle

Hey everyone! 
          	I just published a new book: stockholm.
          	I know i havent been active, but i am really looking forward to write this book<3 
          	Hope you guys will show it some love!

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nerulle

Ugh i just need a place to let out my emotions right now...
          
          I f*cking hate myself right now. I hate the fact that whenever my skin seems to be getting good i just f*ck it up. I am so emotionally drained by my acne / acnescars. I just want to have nice skin for once, to be able to go without concealer.
          I want to feel confident in my own skin, and it sucks that I've come so so far in loving myself - but it just seems to be a stop when it comes to my scars and acne. I just cant. I hate the fact that I have this disgusting picking habit. It f*cks up my skin. And now i did it again - i f*cked up my skin again and all i want to do is cry. I've cried so many times because of my skin. At this point i just feel so empty. I dont know what to do anymore, i use all these skin care products but nothing works. So now, because i am so upset in myself, the sadness is just eating me up while i stay up all night. Its already 3 am.
          F*cking hate myself.

nerulle

@lacqueline wow sorry did not see your reply before now... thank you so much♡ i try to work on it but i guess everyone falls back sometimes....
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bluexmoonchild

@nerulle i know youve probably heard this but either way your beautiful and social norms are trash anyway. I'm here if you wanna vent or to become friends. Everyone goes through acne honey and if anyone calls you out on it they are immature and ignorant and don't deserve your time. If you really want to clear your skin you need to manifest it into your life. Again I am here if you want to be friends or to just vent. 
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nerulle

it's currently past midnight and i just have a lot on my mind..
          
          i suddenly have this feeling of loneliness. i just started feeling the feeling of wanting a specific other. a person who appreciates you and cares for you. it's kinda funny how this is the first time i've been feeling like this in my soon 18 years of life.. 
          my previous best-friend, my now good friend, has something going on with my past crush. i know it is stupid of me to care about it, but he is so so good. both his looks and personality. i guess it is just kind of bugging me because she doesn't want to be that serious with a boy, and he is just so precious - but i still dont have any feelings for him? i just feel kind of lonely.
          
          i saw this adorable couple on tiktok whom were actually so wholesome and i just want that, and they were so woke and i just need a boy like that. a boy who is woke, caring, kind, gentle, respects his parents, likes kids, want to cuddle without going further. i dont know, i still feel like i shouldn't rush it, that i will find someone when i start at university in two years. i honestly think that it just shocked me a bit that the two has something? between them.
          
          whatever, good night and i will update soon!
          school is also starting on monday and here i am at 1 am typing away... sleep schedule is great huh?

nerulle

@ nerulle  yeah i have just come to realization that he isnt as good as i imagined him to be, idk he just constantly talks with so many girls and seems pretty interested in them so i dont even care about him - not that i had any feelings for him anyways, was just thinking about him.
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nerulle

I am now continuing my "The ugly duckling" book, along with "Me before you"!♡
          
          I have multible books in my drafts that I am planning on writing, but I have still not written them done or started with some of them. However I am super excited to start on my book starring Seokjin, which will have an very interesting story-line in my opinion. I still have not seen any books with this planned story-line so yeah, I think it will be fun!