patrick (thats not actually my name)

WERE THE SAME AGEEEE 

do y'all have any tips for excruciating period pain?

ima rant again. so if you scroll after the rant under this one and read it. this will make more sense. 
          before i send this message through let me say this. you can reply but you dont have to i just needed to get this off my chest. if anything doesnt make sense lmk. ill mark each message with numbers so if you do have questions you can put the number of the message and it would be easier for me to answer. 
          
          
          
          1: ok so yk that message i sent my mom? so ya she wants to have a talk with me about why she has me take care of my little brother and i think i know why. so she had a stroke at 36 when i was 6 turning 7. she had just had my little brother and she was in the hospital for a long time. and ever since she has had wrist issues, she goes numb on her left side, she has ibs, anxiety disorder, chronic headaches and migraines so she really depends on me.
          
          
          2: so i sent her that message because my little brother ran and told her that i wasn't letting him stay with my cousin and i. so she had yelled at me for spending time alone with cousin watching horror movies and stuff without him. so i said what i said and i wanted to say so much more but i couldnt. anyways ya. so i think i wanna get legally emancipated. and its not that shes a bad mom its just that ive been a 'mom' since i was 7.
          
          
          3: and i want to stop being a mom. i can tell that im only mature because i take care of my little brother because when i get excited i start stimming like a kid with autism. and i watch cartoons and kids movies and ya. so i wanna get emancipated or ask my sister with the abusive baby daddy to adopt me. also shes finally moving away from him so im so happy. so ya.. thats what i wanted to say.

im gonna rant
          
          im so fuckin tired of life. im tired of my fuckin family. im tired of living. like i wanna kms. so im on vacation with a cousin that i haven't seen in years and we wana watch the conjuring together. i dont want my little brother to watch it for obvious reasons and i also want to spend time alone with her. my brother keeps running to my fucking mom saying that we aren't letting him watch tv with us and so so. my aunt doesn't have smart tvs in her house so we cant use the tv streaming service that we want to. so my mom bought a tv for i quote 'him,' him being my little brother and only him. she says she treats us by our age but she doesn't. i cant wait to leave my house. i just cant fuckin wait. i really cant. and in my religion we believe that if you kill yourself you wont go to heaven so ya. i honestly dont fuckin care. i wont have to see the people i call family ever again. im not going on vacation with them again. ill stay home. idc where it is my ass is staying home bc anytime we go on vacation some shit happens. fuck that.
          
          any advice for wanting to leave the house at 14?
          
          also i think i wanna go to a mental hospital bc im being so fuckin serious about wanting to kms

so ima blur out names but does this sound good to send to my mom???
          
          you dont understand how i feel mom. ever since () was little you always stuck him with me. you made me sleep downstairs with him every night for a good few years and i got used to it and i never got a break from him. hes so mean to me when you leave the house and sometimes he tells me to die. i never tell you and i dont know why i don't but hes always so mean to me. i never get a break from him. i keep asking him to leave me alone and he doesn't. when we are at home he hits me and he never stops. i hate to say it but the way you act towards him and towards me is so different. it seems like you favor him. and i hate it. i just wanted some alone time with a girl my age. im with him all the time and i get tired of him mom. i dont know if you will get mad at me for saying this but its how i feel. 

bro im so single it hurts. everytime i read silet lies by @ivyxjadewrites i feel so fucking single. i need a gf  or bf. idfc. i just want someone 

JUST PUBLISHED MY FIRST CHAPTER AHHHHHHH. i still need to find a book cover and go over some things then it will be ready to FULLY publish 

dude, i just realized you read Quiet not Innocent. 

what would plot be the best for a gxg book and/or a bxb book? i wanna try some lgbtq books bc i grew up knowing nothing about lgbtq so if yall could give me any information about sexualities and maybe just some personal like experiences that you have had with homophobic people so i can get an idea of how homophobic people are. THANK YOU ALL❤️ 

Trope ideas for romance:
          
          Enemies to lovers
          Pen pals/ secret identity
          Work colleagues
          Rich x poor
          Opposites attract
          Friends to lovers
          Forbidden love 
          Billionaire
          Royal
          Stuck together
          (e.i Trapped in an elevator)
          Best friend’s brother/ sister
          Second Chance
          Soulmates
          Fantasy
          Vampire/ werewolf
          Fake relationship
          Holiday romance/ flings
          Damsel/ dude in distress
          Dialogue
          sunshine vs grumpy
          Different world
          matchmaker
          
          I have more if you want! lmao