Update:
I lost my bestfriend, but gained three friends!
(It's the same people as before)
We're now friends again!
We became friends again over gmail.
Me and my friend agreed that yes, we probably will never be bestfriends again, but that we could be friends! I'm super happy about that!
I just want to apologize to them again. I'm sorry I was such a horrible person. I should've talked to you, but instead I lashed out. I am so sorry.
(If anything I've said sounds rude and/or whiny, it was not meant to)