The Girl Under The Horizon

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" We dont want to own what we have
          We dont develop what we are,  and we're not proud of who we are... "

Unfold the chapters where you mostly cry, where your scar is,  where the pains have revealed,  where you said you wanted to die already,  where you gave up,  where your darkest times happened,  and where you needed a friend the most, 
          Coz all i ever want is for you to let me in,  let me read and comprehend those chapters of your life,  and just let me stay with you; 
          You're a bad liar when you said you're okay and when you gave me that sweet but fake smile of yours. 
          You're such a liar when you said everything IS okay,  but when I took a look at you,  you're so much in pain,  you're broken,  you're crying and dying inside,  you're suffocating in this small room that you built on your own; 
          Don't pretend anymore,  I know it is all fake... 

There's a big difference in being a mistake and having mistakes. 
          In my case,  I don't want to be a mistake anymore. 
          I'm tired of hearing that I am mistaken,  that 
          WE ARE MISTAKEN. 
          We make mistakes,  but that doesn't mean we are the mistake. 
          We make mistakes only to make it right. 
          Dont collect mistakes that can destroy you. 
          Instead of collecting,  replace it by doing good things. 
          Make it right by doing good. 
          Whatever we do,  WE ARE NOT A MISTAKE. 

Ang hirap magpatawad pero mabilis humingi ng tawad. 
          Isang mahabang proseso ito at habang nasa proseso ka,  marami pa pwedeng mangyari. 
          Pwedeng mas umiral ang galit mo kaysa sa kagustuhang magpatawad. Pwedeng maligaw ka sa proseso at di na makalabas pa. Pwedeng mas lumalim pa ang sugat. 
          Humingi ng tawad sa Kanya,  patawarin ang sarili,  at magpatawad. 
          Tatlong bagay pero kakaunti lamang ang nakakakumpleto nito. 
          Pwedeng mong pekiin pero sa huli ikaw at ikaw pa rin naman ang talo. 
          Ang hirap naman kasi talaga ehh kung paulit ulit ka na nilang sinasaktan at unti unting nabubuo ang kung ano-anong emosyon sa loob mo dahil lang sa di mo pwedeng ilabas ito sa mga nananakit sayo. Kadalasan ang mga malalapit pa sayo ang may malaking posibildad na manakit sayo at gawan ka ng masama. 
          Pero kung estranghero naman ang may pagkakataon na manakit sayo,  malaki.... 
          MALAKI ANG PINSALA. 
          Bakit ang hirap magpatawad? 
          Kase di mo na rin kilala kung sino sa kanila ang may pinakatotoong puso na humihingi ng tawad

Yung ibang tao di na alam kung papaano pa mabuhay, kung paano pa magtutustus ng pagkain damit pera sa pamilya, kung paano pa kakayod, kung paano magpatuloy, kung paano rumangya ang buhay, kung paano mapabuti ang buhay, kung paano maging ligtas sa karahasan ng mundo, kung paano pa bumangon, kung paano ngumiti sa lahat ng problema, kung paano lumaban at iba pa.... 
          Kaya isa lang masasabi ko sa'yo na mas maswerte sa kagaya nila....
          HUWAG KANG ATTITUDE SIZZZ!!!! 

Marami pa lang taong malungkot at maraming pinagdadaanan,  so sino ako para sila ay husgahan? Sino ako para di sila intindihin? 
          Sino ako para maging malungkot sa oras ng kanilang kasadlakan? 
          Hindi ko kaya to at parang hinding-hindi ko makakayanan. 
          Ang titigan ang mga mata nila. 
          Ni buksan ang puso at pasukin ang nasa loob ng mga utak nila ay parang di ko kakayanin. 
          Ang kaya ko lang ay huwag sumuko. 
          Alam ko kailangan nila ng mga taong kaagapay, mga taong masaya at mas may matatag na loob kaysa sa kanila. 
          Kailangan nila ng karamay kapag wala ng masasabihan. 
          Kapag di malapitan ang magulang at kaibigan. 
          Kailangan talaga nila non. 
          Sana mas dumami ang masasayang tao kaysa sa malulungkot. 
          Alam ko naman na sa mundong to kailangan balanse ang lahat pero sa ganitong bagay sana tayo ay magdamayan at piliting maging malakas para sa iba. 
          Matuto sana tayong magbigay ng kasiyahan natin sa ibang tao. 
          Kung di na kaya ng iba, sana'y maalalayan natin sila. 
          Gusto ko maging masaya para makahawa ito sa iba,  hindi yung maging masaya dahil nakasadlak ang iba. 
          
          
          

Instead of asking "when will i die? ",
          Try to ask too "when will i live? "
          Live like you've never live before. 
          Treasure every moment, both tragedies and happiness. 
          

Dont give those brave people a sympathetic look , trust me they don't like it. What they need is someone who's braver than them and someone who can appreciate their battles on everyday life. Don't expect them to easily give up and cry on someone's shoulder coz like what i said,  they are the brave ones. 

We're too obsessed on beautiful things in a paradise; that's why we tend to neglect the beautiful things in trashes and tragedies, too. 
          The question is,  
          That paradise we look up to,  is it real? 
          Or are we just too blind? 
          Blinded by our own doings and foolishness. 
          We badly want to go to beautiful places
          We want to buy beautiful products
          We want to be beautiful 
          Or is it just our own reason to escape ugliness in us? 
          That we can't accept it? 
          Even in those fake paradise you look up to,  there were always a hidden scar beyond its surface.