"i forgot my pencil"

i'm just so tired

but if I sit in the rain 
          maybe I can drown 
          in something other 
          than my own thoughts

I wonder what comes to your mind when you hear my name

god sake
          i think this shit is going to kill me someday

man, i don't believe in that saying "you reap what you sow"
          I don't remember planting so much shit 

bruh, things have been crazy lately.

you sat down next to me and i think i forgot how to breathe.

why do you mean so much to me? do i mean this much to you?

do you ever just want to sit next to someone and listen to everything they could possibly say about anything ever just because you like their face and their voice and their general existence?

some days I cannot stop thinking about you, and other days I wonder why I'm wasting my time.