if i do it i wont suffer but i wont see them ever again i wanna be with them i wanna keep seeing them but at the same time i just wanna fucking end it but i wont be able to do the things ive always wanted to but it doesnt even fucking matter anymore my head hurts my bidy hurts i can feel my organs the walls are closing in i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breath i cant breath i cant breath i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant breathe i cant