orange smile🍊

I don't know if anybody would care but I'm so happy I finally have a clear outline on that thing I'm working onㅠㅠ Hopefully this would help me  finish it fasterㅠㅠ

What's happening?
          
          My parents finally agreed to shift my course to BSN and can I just say how I could finally breath? And that math and solving problems really affected my English? I'm happy that I can finally breath. But realizing how much I'm now struggling in English, sucks. I could even form a perfect error free paragraph while half asleep before but now I even find it a hard time expressing myselfㅠㅠ
          
          Also, because I realize how stressful it really is in college, I've got some angsty dramatic feeling bottled up inside me now. And since I mainly release my stress through reading fanfics, I feel like I would touch my stories again. However, I won't be publishing any new chapters yet. I'll be sharing it once the whole book is finished. I just feel so guilty at how people are still reading my works and are waiting for the updates. I don't want them to wait for months or even a year anymore just for a each chapter to arrive:(
          
          03/09/21 — 01:37AM PST

Just wanted to share this out here:
          
          I know I'm not active. Like really active but I hope readers know how appreciative I am that people actually read my works. I write whenever I want to, when I feel like it. And still there are people reading them. Which is why I am so sad to realize how I took time for granted. Now, I'm literally failing my 1st semester in College and I just want to write again.
          
          I'm crying. I feel like I'm slowly falling into a state where even the things and people who usually makes me so happy fails to do so. All I want is to save my face and my parents' money. My father said that it was ok if I failed, the thing he wants me to do is do my best till the end. But I just can't. I keep getting pressured and I feel sorry for the money they spent for books and photocopies. For my expensive tuition fees and their efforts
          
          I don't even want to become a CPA. I want to write. But at this point, screw this. I just want to pass this semester and start anew for the next one. I wanna prove that even though I was a STEM student, I could graduate. Ofcourse, now chances for high ranks are impossible but I still want to do my best.

When will this pandemic stop? I'm not at all sad that I have to stay at home and am unable to go outside. I'm just scared of the people that has to face the pandemic by themselves and to those infected ones. I feel sad to those people who has lost their lives.
          
          I'm sorry, I watched GabbieKook's video she posted 2 days ago about their current well being. I thought Philippines (my country) are going through so much, but when I realized how much more it affected the UK and US, I realize my current situation (being at home) is not as bad. Praying for the safety of all people (my readers or not) and their good health until the higher ups finds the cure.
          
          Have a nice day/evening. Stay healthy and please remember how much you are loved and are special.♡

I hope everyone who are facing problems and are sad rn, cheers up. You don't deserve to be sad. Just know that you are special and you are very much loved. 
          
          Have a nice and wonderful day~~♡

I'm such an idiot for the noticing queen's posted message, ahahha I got busy with acads, sorry :'(
          
          Tagged by : @Vickypetritiaz
          
          List of things I like about myself:
          
          1. I won the race, HAHAHAHA
          2. I'm multilingual
          3. I can memorize fast
          4. I have the same birthdate as my TXT bias, Soobin
          5. The fact that I can stan kpop groups and write fanfics, uwu
          
          

!!Announcement!!
          -After I finish writing In His Arms, I'll solelly put my focus on my OkiKagu Fanfic, 'My Rival, My Love'. It's not because I'm reglecting my other fics, it's just that the EXO Fanfic, 'The Key' need a lot of work and time to be done. And the RyoSakun Fanfic, 'His Clumsy Girl' just needs to be finalized and such<3 Please bear with this awful and lazy writer and be with me till the end >~<-
          
          --suzumeaoki

Next chapter for My Rival, My Love will be updated this week so please anticipate it<3 ~suzumeaoki

Hello kawaii-chan ^^
          Thank you for adding my book in your reading list, I really appreciate it ^_^

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