nightmare_carousel

i love you guyss

DisneyReferenceQueen

@nightmare_carousel omg idk why I didn't see these recent posts- ILYT! Hope you're doing okay <3
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City_CloWn

Hey, if just finished reading the Control Edward nygma book. And I know that was 5 yrs ago, but you are amazing at writing , I love writing too. And u inspired me to keep going. PLZ PLZ PLZ PLZ, I you can, and I know you really can, plz start writing again. You have a talent so plz dont let it go. I really wanted to tell u this because you actually are good at writing and I can tell u love writing. So I needed to let u know that your efforts are appreciated by many around the world. Plz dont give up on something that you are extremely good at and that you love so much, bc trust me you'll miss it, and regret stopping. 
          

City_CloWn

* If you can......i wrote i you can ....srry...
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nightmare_carousel

sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be able to write again. and even if i do, i know it's never going to be the same. i'm never going to get the community that i had back, with so many lovely people that i would talk with so often. 
          
          i miss interacting with my community so much. i miss participating in fandom spaces. everything is so different now, people are so quiet and don't interact like they used to. 
          
          i think the hardest part is that i've changed so much. i started this account when i was a teenager and i've been here almost 10 years now. if i ever do manage to write again, i feel like it will always look wrong because my writing style will have changed just as much as me. i've grown up and matured and life has beaten me down and i've grown very ill over the years.
          
          i look in the mirror and it's like a stranger looking back at me. i'm afraid that my writing will reflect that, should i ever manage to publish anything again. and i'm afraid that i'm like a stranger to you all, too. that my writing will be like a stranger, and that it won't be anything like what we remember. 
          
          it won't be as good as what we remember. 
          
          i'm sorry that i've changed. i'm sorry that this account has all but died. i'm desperately holding onto it, with the almost hysterical hope that one day, it will be like it was back then. 
          
          but i know it won't be. and i'm sorry for that. i'm so sorry. 

ilovemelonmilk

@nightmare_carousel I can totally understand that it's hard to start writing again, especially after the huge time leap. It's hard! However, just know that most teenagers start writing on platforms like Wattpad for even the simplest reasons, like writing an idea you've had for a long time or sharing your writing with people who just want to read and listen. There isn't and shouldn't be pressure to write or not. Instead, ask yourself "would it make me happy if I wrote?" Your community will follow--I definitely would! There are going to be people like me who would be excited to see your current self. Just as much as you were accepting of your community, the community will be accepting of you. 
            
            I also understand that people don't interact nearly as much as they used to, but it is to be expected: just like you, there will be many people who grow up, find jobs, or simply leave their adolescence. It's okay to be afraid of change, but it will hurt a lot less if you accept it. 
            
            You're doing great! Just keep going, one step at a time :D
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DisneyReferenceQueen

@nightmare_carousel I can relate. A lot, actually. My account is exactly the same. Maybe one day we can both start writing again
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nightmare_carousel

i've got some of the worst comfort movies and comfort characters on the planet lmao

Mioaxxsaurus

@ nightmare_carousel  sound like a lot of cool movies with a lot of comfort 
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nightmare_carousel

@Mioaxxsaurus sure! for movies, the evil dead (1981), the entire saw series, renfield, psycho (1960),  the fnaf movie, ghost rider (2007), watchmen (2009), re-animator, and like all the original universal monster movies to name a few!
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Mioaxxsaurus

@ nightmare_carousel  can you recommend some?
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nightmare_carousel

my mental and physical health continue to worsen with no clear answers in sight, yet here i am, lurking here everyday in the hopes i'll suddenly regain the ability to write like i could 5+ years ago
          
          i know my issues run much deeper than just simple writer's block, but if any of y'all have tips for how to overcome writer's block, i'd very much like to hear them!❤️

City_CloWn

Try therapy it'll help alot trust me.
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nightmare_carousel

@Shadow4242 i feel that, i've also been trying to cut down on my screen time and social media
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Shadow4242

One way I’ve been trying is reconnecting with nature and staying off the phone so ideas flow
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nightmare_carousel

final health update: not appendicitis, but idk what it is. i'll have to get my ultrasound results from my doctor at my next appointment, but i know at least it's not life threatening.
          
          sorry it took a while for this update, life has not been treating me well. 
          
          hope you guys are all well and much love to you as always!❤️

DisneyReferenceQueen

@nightmare_carousel Just checking up, how are you doing??
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nightmare_carousel

just wanted to let you guys know, i wound up in the hospital today with suspected appendicitis and i'm getting an emergency ultrasound tomorrow to confirm whether that's what it is or not
          
          if it is, i'll be going into surgery 
          
          i don't often talk about my personal life on here because i'm paranoid about giving away too much information (because of past experiences), but you guys mean a lot to me and i thought you deserved to know, just so you know what's up if i'm away for a while 
          
          i'll keep you guys updated as i go 
          
          sending much love to you all as always❤️

nightmare_carousel

@echoflip thank you, i appreciate it!❤️
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DisneyReferenceQueen

Just wanted to say that i have some cool ideas for Spider Noir oneshots if you ever wanted to continue that series:   
          
          1- A thug tries to break into Y/n's apartment and Noir saves the day
          
          2- Spider Noir and Y/n sip wine/whiskey and have a deep talk
          
          3- Noir takes Y/n web slinging around the city  ( i think something similar has already happened in a oneshot but i cant remember ) 
          
          Feel free to discard this but i just wanted to tell you these ideas i woke up with in my head :3

nightmare_carousel

@DisneyReferenceQueen omg i love these, thanks so much for sharing!!! <3
            my spider noir book is one that i hold so close to my heart and i wish so badly to return to it!! 
            i will be sure to credit you should i use any of these ideas!! <3 <3 <3
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