Christriana

hello angst. my name is preppy. how r u today :p

does anyone know how to take stories off of private?

He is gone and I don't think he'll ever come back, I am broken and I don't think anyone can put me back together, I love him but I lost my one shot at true happiness
          Pls forgive me for whatever I did wrong I love you pls come back ;(

Glad to know where I stand, it doesn't fucking matter to him if we don't see eachother or not I bet he'd like it better if we hardly ever spoke or saw eachother he just wants to have a title saying he's a boyfriend; fucking fuck face

that lying manipulative jerk fucks around with my emotions and i dont think he actually cares:
          
          i am so confused to the fucking max, he tells me he loves me but then when i come to see him, text him, hes making it clear im not welcome, FINE you want to piss me off and make me want to cry and flip at you all the fucking time, im done, im done trying to make you happy, im done making sure you know i love you when im luck to hear i love you come out of your mouth ONCE fuck you, i am not putting up with this crap anymore.
          
          he makes me want to cry and cut again if im not welcome in your life then how am i welcome in your heart!
          
          fine if im not welcome then fine my walls are going back up i cant trust you to keep my heart safe then im not going to let you keep a hold on it anymore

Why can't I be 50/50 i know he's dead I know he's gone but at the same time it doesn't completely feel that way and y isn't that ok?!?!?!? 

Remembrance Day
          Hey everyone
          For most people today is a normal day, however it’s not. Today is a day to remember the dead, the ones who sacrifice everything to keep us in our safe and comfortable lives we live.
          So for anyone who doesn’t stand for the 2 minutes of silence or doesn’t wear a poppy or doesn’t remember it must be on the left side FOR SHAME! 
          I have had several family members fight and a large percent of them died so for anyone who sees today as a pointless and insignificant day YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO LIVE IN A PEACFUL WORLD GO LIVE IN A THRID WORLD COUNTRY because clearly you have no respect.

i close my eyes & see u but u reject me 4 someone worthy of ur purity & love & im left alone 2 cry myself to sleep another night & all i think is how long till u say that 2 my face & i die

My heart yearns for your love but the  way you act you yearn for my tears

i feel like the more i need you the more you walk away because your waking up to you own worth and my lack of