u hav no idea how much u are killing me.
i get it our level of friendship can't reach that of the others. lik how u'd hug them, talk and joke with them about aything. that level of closeness. i know i should accept it. deep down i didn't want to. but i chose silence. bc i didnt want to cause drama. i didnt want to ruin wat we already have. i should be contented i get to hang-out with u.
then this day arrives. i waited. while u were chatting me. i waited. and nothing. i still waited until u stopped chatting, thinking u were trying to recall wat day it is today. still... nothing.
why?
WHY?!?!?!?
all i wanted was to hear it from u. receive a greeting from u but WTF. THIS HAS GONE TOO FAR. did u forget? i bet if it was the others, u would hav greeted them. hell.
"ive had it."
u treating me differently. when it's us two u dont want to talk to me while i'm trying so hard to think of a conversation. "ive had it"
u hav no idea wat i look lik rn. a sobbing mess, typing this up in my phone. we bought a cake. something i didnt ask for. and u know wat? it didnt fit in the fridge and my mom insulted me. so i had to cut the box, push down the top of the cake which resulted to ruining it. thats when i broke down.
all i wanted was to hear it from u. i didnt care if everyone else forgot. hell i dont care if my mom didnt cook me spaghetti. i just wanted to hear it from u. thats all i ask for. two words. those are just two words. wats so hard about that. "happy birthday". how many letters does that have? is it too much of a hassle to open up ur messenger, click our chatbox, type those words up then send?
ive had it
