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2025 hasn't even started but my year already went bad bcs my mom is going to take away my phone and she's going to force me to study and do hw with her
          Why does she think that this is going to fix my grades? Are grades the only thing that she cares? 
          I once remembered that my mom said that she gets happiness when me and my sister get good grades and achievements. Doesn't she get happy just by seeing me? Am I that much of a burden? Doesn't she see that there is something extremely wrong with me mentally?
          Even if she does make me go to therapy, I'm going to lie, that's what I always did, I don't want them to tell my mom anything.
          Taking away my phone is the worst part, if she takes my laptop will make it even worse. I'm the only person that my angel talks to and we don't even live in the same continent, how am I going to talk to him when I won't have electronics? How am I going to talk to my other moots on dc? How am I going to see Enhypens next album or their Coachella performances? How am I going to do my hw without knowing what I have? How am I going to post on pinterest? How am I going to be happy?
          The worst part for me is that I don't even know how I feel like 24/7.
          I don't know if I'm happy. I don't know if I'm sad. I don't know if I'm angry. I don't know if I'm numb. 
          I also don't know if I'm just insecure or smth else, I want short hair, a deeper voice, I want to be taller and have a muscular body, I sometimes feel uncomfortable, so uncomfortable, I don't know anymore.
          Sorry for the vent
              
                                                                    -Ara

Me omw to read all of the dark moon series (blood altar, grey city, children of the vamfield) go on wikis that explains the characters looks and personalities just so I can try to write the fanmade lore that I had in my head long enough even tho I won't even reach 3 chapters and publish it:

Yall idc if my mom won't let me cut my hair short again
          I will get the scissors and cut them short af, idc if she'll be@t me up or anything
          I don't like long hair, and that's that

He hasn't responded in days, I'm getting worried

I've been thinking romantic stuff abt him again, my feelings for him are so confusing 

Man, I wish that my angel could tell me his problems, he's clearly suffering but he's brushing it off and trying to distract me from it
          I don't want to force him to vent on me but one of my other moots told me that I might have to as some point (he tried to commit 15 times but failed), so I might have to force my angel to vent bcs I'm getting more worried.
          I'm also struggling rn with my own life but I'm more worried for him since I saw a few of his whispers that he has been waiting everyday to die, but I don't want him to die.
          Ever since I've been talking to him it's like my days have been brighter, he always made me smile no matter what, it would shatter me if he actually commits and dies, idk what would do if that actually happens.
          I just hope that my love gets better soon
          
                                                                -Ara <3

THEME! 

:3

Idk what fanfic to download so I can read when I'm bored at school

Yall,is eating food differently a crime,cause why the hell does my mom get super pissed when I eat smth like how I always eaten it.
          She even hit up with the line "stop crying or else I'll beat you up until you know why you're crying"