I'm still the yappatron I used to be back then, isn't that cute?
It's interesting that all of that was only 4 years ago. It feels like a lifetime ago.
Well, I'm different now.
I'd like to say I'm less cringe.
I'm more mature, at least.
I select my words better.
I think before I act and speak.
I think about the consequences of my actions before I act out my actions.
Would it be worth it to punch this bitch in the face?
.... Probably not. But it'd be fun.
But fun isn't worth the consequences.
Me and my mom have a better relationship.
Like, a way better relationship.
Me and myself, though....
I started SH. I've been clean for I think a month? Idk
But uh...
I hope Mari is still alive. I used to hate her, a lot.
Because she did some pretty sucky things to me, and I still feel the effects of them.
I constantly second guess myself, I feel ashamed and scared whenever somebody is mad at me (like more than you should), I feel like everybody is always mad at me, stuff like that.
But, she apologized. She admitted to what she did. I did some thinking on what she did.
It was a defense mechanism, wasn't it?
Or maybe, puberty? Whatever it was, she most likely couldn't control it.
So, I genuinely forgive her. Finally.
I want to be friends again.
