I want to say something that I won't be able to speak out.
It's so depressing. I never thought of telling this but the situation made me write this.
I'd be updating my story as long as I can. I have some other story ideas, too. But I can't keep it together.
No one thinks about my feelings. What my heart feels. They don't speak for me. Just blame me for not being able to do anything. Is that my fault? I'm trying my best. It's just I can't do it.
No one loves me. No one hugs me. No one soothes me. No one cuddles with me. What they all do is find my faults. They only want me to give them name and fame. They don't care how much I sacrifice for it even though I fail every time. I don't have any privacy here. I hate it. They want to know each and every single thing about me.
I don't know what to do. I just know that I can't bear this anymore. I have had enough of all this. I feel like I'm surrounded by wild beasts who are ready to eat me anytime.
I want to feel numb. So that they can't hurt my heart. I won't be feeling pain in my heart if I go numb.
Sometimes I want to go insane. So that I would not hear those painful things. I'm already suffering from migraines. And now, I just want someone to kill me. If one day I go silent without letting you know, please don't blame me. At least let my soul find some peace and love.
I'll be updating until I get some love or I end this pain.
Love you all.