@niniiannwalkzz
I dunno where else to place this 'cause I have no EDM friends irl but
Today's our graduation day, and my hair was just finished being fixed. Thing is, they straightened my beautiful wavy hair and now I high-key look like Skrillex. Literally, it's so funny. They even made a style where the left side of my hair is hidden, making me look even more like him! LMAOAOAOOAO
Okay bye, I'm graduating as Skrillex y'all. ⊙﹏⊙
Noooo Vinterlys is still down!
@Copylefter Oh that entry's just a spoiler for this book I'm planning, it's gonna be on its own soon lol
okay so ahrix just came back from long hibernation and i suddenly felt obliged to do so as well (idk why but i feel like a proud parent clapping while i read that he just came out as bi, like im so proud of u bro)
anyhow, im a week away from graduation (hooway!) and is currently just finding a way to be back on track, in which i havent figured out yet. i've got works lined up, i just dont know which one to do first. theyre so many. help.
okay i think thats it. ill publish something whenever, pretty much soon :))
i cant wait for rix's comeback! hell yeah!
I heard somewhere 2016 is coming back. So, yeah. I guess it's time for me to focus more on EDM fanfics again.
IF ONLY I DIDNT HAVE SCHOOL. RAH. HLEP. THEY'RE LITERALLY RUSHING US TO GRADUATE AND LIKE PUTTING ALL 5+ HUGE EVENTS IN A MONTH?! SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE.
Anyway, next shts in line should be:
- a rewrite of Nipan (I'm starting to give up this idea)
- revision of CB
- a new 391 fanfic, tho idk if I'll publish in this account or @eramthgin_391
- a journal of like random things...idk when I'll actually push this.
- some edm rarepair fanfic that I've never seen on anyone...at least in my perspective. Might publish it on the other account instead.
Right now, I'm working offline on those projects, I dunno when I'll publish em.
Okay. Is all.
Oh and K-391 has this new song named "Mona Lisa", listen to that. I haven't yet, but I just know it's good.
a little bit of ranting here. sorry for the notif cause if i didnt, this'll lose its purpose or smth like that.
the worst thing you could make your child realise is how "replaceable" they are and will be in the future. lately, my mother had cleared in my head that my career path is most definitely replaceable and replicable by the artificial intelligence, stripping me off of what I see as my only purpose in this suffering we call life. while I remind to myself that it is just impossible, seeing as any works of AI in all art forms are collectively soulless, every single interaction with her so far felt like a proof that she might even choose something so artificially made over the hardwork of her own daughter. Distraught is the perfect word for what I feel about it. I am butthurt to the core. Yes, I sound sensitive, but I will never discredit all the sacrifices and efforts I made and is making to self-teach myself how to reach this dream of mine. In fact, I have never received any support system to either of whom was supposed to be the very people urging me to reach and finish my career path. The people around me only made me feel like I've always been fighting on something meaningless; something that shouldn't worth protesting for.
this demotivates me into writing overall. i know to myself that i write good, that i shouldn't listen to external noises, but at some point, you couldn't just help but crumble. as i am writing this rant, i am crumbling. i am pissed off. i wanna commit arson (for legal reasons this is a joke).
and with that, i decided to pause indefinitely into writing actively here and on quotev (let's pretend i'm active on that site). not total hiatus. just working underground. MIGHT revive ao3 tho idk. been curious about that site, but i totally don't use my account there. toodles.
remember to fight what is true and authentic. always. x
@niniiannwalkzz see how I just (kind of) changed your mind? That’s the power of WRITING! :) Glad to have you back, I was worried there.
@Copylefter I dunno why I never view it that way 'til you've mentioned it. I guess my parent's voices went deep in my head (writing not being a sustainable job and all, not just financially). But you've had a huge point on this one, I'll keep this in mind. I dunno when I bring up this point to my parents if they'll believe this or smth. Shouldn't matter that much, I'll also keep writing.
If I’m being completely honest, I will keep writing even if it leaves me broke and dead in a ditch. There will always be people out there who prefer books where every single word is crafted and picked by a real human being. AI is never going to say exactly what you want to no matter how specific you are because it just can’t read your mind.
Even if AI can demonstrate your point and have it to come across a lot better, it cannot create something from nothing. There is no output without input. And that input has to come from humans. The better the prompt is, the better AI’s response will be. And the best way to hone your prompt skills is to WRITE.
life update: not new years yet here, and i'm torturing myself to write about half of vinterlys, brb, wish me luck finishing all these terrible, rushed entries. supposedly a surprise, but the most i can gift myself is a chance to rant hehe send help
UPDATE: IT'S DONE! IT'S FRICKING DONE! Tho it's not formatted and y'all probably gonna have like a million notifications so be alert and sorry in advance hehe
Has anyone ever felt like finding some certain type of fanfiction but you just couldn't so you are forced to write it? That's literally me rn. Help. I need yandere edm, alnst, and tadc. Desperately. I can't write shits ffs yet.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday folks! My Christmas present for y'all IS NOT DONE YET UGH
anyway, may you guys enjoy this day! Open gifts, eat somethin, go crazy. Like my neighbours rn, they're igniting fireworks like it's the New Years already.
Vinterlys will have a week long break (starting the Sunday that just passed) because the author had just betrayed (I just watched EP 7, and almost felt myself abstract)
no but tbh, i need the break :((
This is so frustrating as someone with a very structure-strict OCD. I just figured out I forgot the entry for tomorrow for Vinterlys, and tomorrow's the last day of our preliminary examinations, so like, I still can't write tonight, but maybe tomorrow afternoon, I might cram it, and the following days forward. This is so frustrating. Ugh. I hate school.
So, from this moment on, entries might delay, but won't be forgotten. Guaranteed they'd be out before the New Years.