@nocturnal_writer
Anyone know some way of getting messages back on here? It’s been years since I was really active but I have some good memories in some of those messages including talking to Nico so it’s not like I can make new ones since he’s passed now… any help would be appreciated it’d just be nice to see our old conversation. TIA, love y’all.
I leave the gas on
Walk the allies in the dark
Sleep with candles burning
I leave the door unlocked
I'm weaving a rope and
Running all the red lights
Did I get your attention
'Cause I'm sending all the signs and
The clock is ticking
And I'll be giving my two weeks
Pick your favorite shade of black
You'd best prepare a speech
Say something funny
Say something sweet
But don't say that you loved me
'Cause I'm still breathing
But we've been dead for awhile
This sickness has no cure
We're goin' down for sure
Already lost a grip
Best abandon ship
Maybe I was too pale
Maybe I was too fat
Maybe you wanted better, better luck in the sack
No formal education
I swear way too much
I swear you didn't care
'Cause we were in love
So as I write this letter and shed my last tear
No, it's all for the better
That we end this here
Let's close this chapter
Say one last prayer
But don't say that you loved me
'Cause I'm still breathing
But we've been dead for awhile
This sickness has no cure
We're goin' down for sure
Already lost a grip
Best abandon ship
'Cause I'm still breathing
But we've been dead for awhile
This sickness has no cure
We're goin' down for sure
Already lost a grip
Best abandon ship
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
-Katy Perry
I feel like I apologize all the time for not writing on here, but I’m not sorry anymore. Other things have become more important in my life, especially since I realized I’m becoming an adult this year. Things like working out, my friendships and relationships, school, eating healthy, and work have become more important. Updates will continue to be inconsistent, that’s just the way it is now.
-A busy Elena
Of course I remember! It’s been so long
All wound up
On the edge
Terrified
Sleep disturbed
Restless mind
Petrified
Bouts of fear
Permeate
All I see
Heightening
Nervousness
Threatens me
I am paralyzed
So afraid to die
Caught off guard
Warning signs
Never show
Tension strikes
Choking me
Worries grow
Why do I feel so numb
Is it something to do with where I come from
Should this be fight or flight
I don't know why I'm constantly so uptight
Rapid heartbeat pounding through my chest
Agitated body in distress
I feel like I'm in danger
Daily life is strangled by my stress
A stifling surge
Shooting through all my veins
Extreme apprehension
Suddenly I'm insane
Lost all hope for redemption
A grave situation desperate at best
Why do I feel so numb
Is it something to do with where I come from
Should this be fight or flight
I don't know why I'm constantly reeling
Helpless hysteria
A false sense of urgency
Trapped in my phobia
Possessed by anxiety
Run
Try to hide
Overwhelmed by this complex delirium
Helpless hysteria
A false sense of urgency
Trapped in my phobia
Possessed by anxiety
Run
Try to hide
Overwhelmed by this complex delirium
-Dream Theater
Woooo don't imagine Poseidon kids who died in battle being buried at sea (unlike the rest of the campers) so Poseidon can lay their bodies to rest. Don't imagine the cemetery he has for all his children. Don't imagine part of the reason for him taking the oath was because he hated losing his kids.
-I'm messed up dudes
I can see you over there
Starring at your drink
Watchin’ that ice sink
All alone tonight
And chances are
You’re sittin’ here in this bar
‘Cause he ain’t gonna treat you right
Well, it’s probably not my place
But I’m gonna say it anyway
‘Cause you look like
You haven’t felt the fire
Had a little fun
Hadn’t had a smile in a little while
Baby
Blue looks good on the sky
Looks good on that neon buzzin’ on the wall
But darling, it don’t match your eyes
I’m tellin’ you
You don’t need that guy
It’s so black and white
He’s stealin’ your thunder
Baby, blue ain’t your color
I’m not tryna
Be another just
Pick you up
Kinda guy
Tryna drink you up
Tryna take you home
But I just don’t understand
How another man
Can take your sun
And turn it ice cold
Well, I’ve had enough to drink
And it’s makin’
Me think that I just might
Tell you if I were a painter I wouldn’t change ya
I’d just paint you bright
Baby
'Cause blue looks good on the sky
Looks good on that neon buzzin’ on the wall
But darling, it don’t match your eyes
I’m tellin’ you
You don’t need that guy
It’s so black and white
He’s stealin’ your thunder
Baby, blue ain’t your color
No no no
Blue ain't your colour baby
Blue looks good on the sky
Looks good on that neon buzzin’ on the wall
But darling, it don’t match your eyes
I’m tellin’ you
You don’t need that guy
It’s so black and white
He’s stealin’ your thunder
Baby, blue ain’t your color
-Kieth Urban
HUGE SORRY TO ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVEN'T BEEN ANSWERING BUT MY DEPRESSION DOESN'T LET ME TALK MUCH SO SORRY
"Maybe become a parent yourself and when you take your daughter to Paris for the first time, it won't be for a sad reason. It will be so you can tell her us... and what I did for you... and what you did for me."
"What did I do for you?"
"You lived."
-Red Band Society: We'll Always Have Paris
Me too.
-this is a viral thing I can get behind