noircaramel

october update: still here. a bit lost. but surviving. working to mend the broken glass. let's wish i can improve for the better.

floatingheels_

I cried again. I dont kneow i just want hugs...
           If you happen to read this, please dont mind it. I just want to escape. And writing here has been my escape place. Because probably no one will read. Most of people here are busy or hiatus over 5 years now. Im just exhausted. And maybe i want to be comforted. But right now just let me be lonely.

Zyleinthe_SMP

@floatingheels_ ☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️ *Virtual hugs*
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floatingheels_

@Zyleinthe_SMP  this really means a lot and i appreciate it so much and its okay english is not my first language as well. And thank you so much for replying meee
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Zyleinthe_SMP

@floatingheels_ Im sorry for not listening to you but you can vent at me whenever you  want what i usually do when im sad is to do my hobbies (drawing,reading,etc.)(pls don't judge my grammar im south east asian)✨✨
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floatingheels_

I want to cry.. But i will just ruin the whole mood. All i want is to be comforted but the only one who capable of that is me.

Luciferbish

@floatingheels_ I don't really know how to comfort you....I mean I can't sweet talk but...(me who's a Fu***ing kuudere..I'm sorryT^T)
            But! I can give you a biiiiiiig bear hug..
            Hugs always makes me calm! I hope it also help you
            *Gives a big bear hug*
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floatingheels_

Been feeling blues lately. I miss my friends.

floatingheels_

@Luciferbish i dont really open wattpad anymore but thank you for this like for real. I hope i can give you a hug to show my gratitude and lets wish we can both strive for the better^^ thank you and love you too!!♡♡
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Luciferbish

@floatingheels_ why can I relate with you so much...I have a really dark past which is still haunting me...but I still want to love myself..
            
            "Remember if you want people to notice you,care about you.. first you have to love yourself"
            This was my phase whenever I have started to judge myself..hehe..
            Idk if this helped you but... let's fight the demon inside us! And win!
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floatingheels_

@floatingheels_ when i cried for you, do know that you really have a special place in me..
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floatingheels_

How are you? Are you doing well? Did you eat properly? Did u sleep on time? Dont oversleep too okay.. its not good for ur health and wbk.
          
          Its tiring.
          Exhausting even.
          
          But dont lose hope.
          Even alone you still have you.

Luciferbish

@floatingheels_ hey! I also love you too <3
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noircaramel

me, 17 years old: yey one more year to be legal and do things i can! one step of living a life by myself, FREEDOM
          
          me, 18 years old: /Still forbid to go to friend's house/can't take a car license/ my passion to study in art course being dragged down thanks to stigma/proving myself to my parents/study abroad in the process/blood sweat and tears.
          
          me,  in my 19 years old: stucked in this house again/ stigma/ no one in the family understands even i tried to/ now have to feed expectation on my lecturers/ just everything is breaking to pieces and the only one that can help you is yourself.

Skylar2k06

@noircaramel I'm sorry for what happened, but stay strong okay? I know how hard the life has treated you and I'm sorry for that. Hope you have a wonderful life now ^^ 
            I'm not usually talk using this but, 
            Saya harap kau akan dapat mencapai impian kau dan selamat berjaya!!
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noircaramel

i wish i don't have a feeling anymore, no need to feed the human needs and just,, idk man,, idk.
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noircaramel

aku penat. aku tak tau mana aku salah. aku tak tau mana yang betul. aku just... i 'm just so done. everything and all of it.
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noircaramel

living in my beautied lie,
          reality crashes in tearing me apart.
          im tired in both the world I created
          and the world im born in.
          
          if I haven't exist in the first place,
          will the hole appear in this constant loop?

noircaramel

and that's conclude one of my wips that yet to unleash.
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noircaramel

a tale or a legend,
            only one knows it all.
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noircaramel

her heels a float,
            her skin runs cold.
            her heart stopped.
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