nondiurnal

after a month, days of reckoning is updated
          	chapter 10 is posted, the next one is the epilogue (next week)
          	
          	https://www.wattpad.com/1613174704-days-of-reckoning-chapter-10

nondiurnal

in feb na ako mag update ulit, draft na muna lahat. nasa phase na naman kasi ako ng buhay ko kung kelan wala akong energy gawin ang mga hobbies ko (and its fine, its okay) as long as im taking my time, i know im gonna be fine. busy rin kasi bc of uni lul kaya medyo na slow ang progress ng updates but im writing i swear (to myself) im really just taking my time. ayoko rin ma-pressure kasi ganito talaga ako: may time na super active, may time na inactive and once in a while lang nagpaparamdam.
          
          im writing adagio, bottle me your tears, and finalizing the end of days of reckoning (im contemplating abt writing an alt ending since its pro / anti choice thingy and i want a lil bit of comparison sa lifestyle ng ano... ifykyk)
          
          this post is gonna be a reminder that i need to publish something in feb na hahahaha

nondiurnal

for years, id doubted myself: am i good enough to be a writer or can i keep up with other writers out there—or both? because we have this sense of competency when it comes to achievements eh di ba—we can't help it and i've always felt like my emotion on this aspect is on and off…  does it make sense?
          
          i wrote this last year during the early start of my academic year, because i want to remind myself na sa panahon ngayon the problem is not how to keep up, but how to keep your essence in writing, your voice—ano bang gusto mong iparating?
          
          i wrote this book silently and published it once i finished editing some parts. sabi ko sa sarili ko, how can i keep my voice kung nauuso na ngayon ang ai, making other people to cheat on what i have been stressing so much. not really stressing, but writing takes time kasi di ba, it takes a lot of time to plan everything, to have exceptional writing, to lay out your plans, your ideas… everything.
          
          ano bang laban ko sa ai di ba?
          
          and this thought formed my brain. this idea of a writer that has controversy vs certainty.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/390119408?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=nondiurnal