nonsystem85

On Sunday I wil be 36th years old and I have been single for 7 years. I really have no dream or desire to live. I have live my life with a motto 'Go with the flow' thus I don't have any long term plan.
          My friends and family said I don't have any responsibility and someone I love so I don't really enjoy living. I read many novel in hope I will find something from stories that I read and started to believe in love again or learn to enjoy life.
          However, I know that reality won't be as beautiful as novel I have read. My realistic mind always put my desire to find love on hold.
          I don't mind being single because I was in love for 10 years yet it end just like that. It's hard to control people feeling and even you give 100% still you can't make them stay if they stop loving you. The risk is too high and I think it's tiring invest emotions on something so fragile.
          From time to time I hope god just let me die. At least if I die my family get insurance money + my saving and they will be happy. My family is not poor but who won't be happier with more money right? I work just to make sure I have money to spend while others work to survive living in this world. I really don't understand why they work so hard to have more because when we die we have to leave everything behind.
          Why people want to live for long time just to struggle everyday? What make people look forward for tomorrow when they have nothing? My life is simple and I live without difficulty since I born maybe because of that I have no interest and nothing motivated me to live this life.
          Can someone teach me how to live life so I can look forward for future? 

How is everyone doing in 1st half of 2021? Few translators I have been follow going AWOL so stories that still ongoing I probably won't know how the ending.
          
          It's ok. Pandemic is making everyone life hard. It's almost 1 year and half since I learned about Covid-19. My family survived it but few our friends didn't. I just hope who ever read this, be happy, healthy and living well. If you still alive and sane, you are great! Be proud and thankful :)
          
          Wishing everyone all the best for 2nd half of 2021. Hope we all will get through this pandemic and celebrate 2022 like before Covid-19 again.

Hello i know this is kinda awkward since we dont know each other and here i am messaging you..i noticed that you also got accepted by blheaven's website about bl books that has been translated into english thats why i would like to ask your help in guessing the password for the civil engineering book because i was having a hard time guessing it and i really like to read this book...if its not bothering you too much i would really appreciate your help thank you 

Happy Valentine Day. I have been single for 7 years. When I was heart broken I met my cat, he was so tiny and sick but later on he grew strong and caring. He really a troublemaker but I feel alive with him around. Supposedly next week he will go for annual check up but sadly he died today due to an accident. In July, he will be 6 years old if he still alive. It really hard for that I can't fall asleep so I decided to write here. 
          I will always love and remember you Grey. Hope you will find your friends in heaven and maybe I will see you again.
          Grey the handsome siamese cat 31st July 2015 - 14th February 2021

I still can't believe that it's already 2021. Thank you all writers and translators in Wattpad for making my 2020 a wonderful year. Despite having pandemic throughout 2020, stories in Wattpad really get me through the tough time. 
          I hope everyone will have better year and I look forward for more wonderful stories.
          Stay safe and be kind!

Just finished reading a story. It is simple without conflict in the relationship and like a disney story. It's been long time since I last read story like that. Once finished, I feel like a good day is ending too.

I have joined Wattpad since 2016. I really wonder how many novel I have read here. After 1st year, I always removed novel that I have finished from my private library because it's make my phone slow if I keep all. Look forward to read more good story. Anyway, have a great weekend ahead! 

Hi..Anyone know whether saehan01 has opened new account or she moved to other platforms? I just noticed Addicted is no longer in my favourite list when I want to read it again. It's like my annual ritual to read Addicted novel and do Sotus series marathon. Her account is the first I followed in wattpad. The team translation work is awesome.
          
          If you know anything reply this message ok! Thank you. Happy New Year everyone :)

I've lost count on how many stories I have read here.. maybe thousand ;) lately I'm yearning for story that has unpredictable storyline because when you have read too many stories you can predict how the story flow after reading few chapters and it's killing the excitement.  
          
          If you have any story (other than ghost or horror story) that you think worth to read please let me know.