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To think that 3 months just went without me knowing. So much has happened, and yet so little progress I've made in my writing. I've been saying I wanna do NaNoWrimo yet procrastinating on accomplishing it for the past few years. I sincerely hope to myself that I am able to get that 50k up this year. Procrastination please stand aside and let me do my shit.
To my readers of N:B&O, the reason for the lack of update was due to my insecurities in publishing any of my chapters. I hate to say I'm an imperfect perfectionist, and the stories I've written thus far had never made me so excited except for N:B&O; an imaginary world that started out as a fun discussion with my friends 8 years ago. As such, I wanted to deliver the best I have for it. Unfortunately, whenever I've looked back on the earlier chapters, a nagging feeling would say that it's not good enough.
While it is common sense that everyone have their own preferences, I felt that my story had never been that much of an interest to anyone else (but me). Updates were slow because I always went back to the writing board to amend earlier chapters, with each time feeling more down because I always felt that something was missing from it. These insecurities and self-doubts had made me quite depressed on writing for the past few months (hence the hiatus and disappearance from any forum activities).
The irony of it all is that I've been cheering others up on the issues I am facing, yet I've been avoiding my own writer's dilemma. I've decided though, that I should man up my words to the other writers and see through N:B&O; be it riddled with mistakes or whatnot. Perhaps what I have been missing all these while was the sense of completion in a work.
If you've been reading up to here, thank you for your time and for those with the same issues as me, I wish you all the best in your writing as well :)