my last update was in october, meaning i finally wrote something after almost two months. exams took a huge toll on me, made me almost lose all my sanity and i lost touch with both writing and reading. but i would still open my draft once in a while, even tho all i would do is just stare at it until i was annoyed enough to close my drafts. but the year is ending, and one of the goals i had this for year was to finish foe and i'm still not close to that, for which i'm honestly ashamed of. foe still has SO MUCH to improve on, so many plot holes to fix. it's like the more i write the more i realised the book needs heavy editing even tho i have already done that twice. i don't talk about this enough but writing on wattpad now feels lonely, cause almost all my friends have left this platform and are barely here, which is completely fine. life happens. but i feel like i'm the only one still stuck in 2021. this place was once a sanctuary to me, and now it feels like a graveyard. i could try to engage again with others, but it's honestly the same cycle repeating and it gets frustrating at times. there are times i really really want to unpublish everything of mine and just leave wattpad altogether but i always end up staying anyway, writing anyway because i'm not leaving, not until i have finished foe exactly how i want it to be finished, until i'm satisfied with my writing. so if it didn't happen this year, next year, then.
and lastly, thank you for 15k. i'm both grateful and mind blown by how people still read foe despite its terrible schedule of publishing. like yall are really nice for that. actually makes me write and sh it
