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How do you move on from something you thought "this is it", like the universe made it happen for you after years of waiting.
          	I feel I am disrespecting the universe coz it gave me exactly what I wanted and yet....it is causing me so much trouble. 
          	You know, i am all okay. I crack jokes with my close ones, work hard in office, attend meetings but there are two things that are wrong : i cry almost every night thinking what have I done thats so wrong....and I am not able to write.
          	I have completed 1550 words of the chapter, but it is not complete and i struggle to write. I am sort of pushing myself now. 
          	But....the grief has consumed a part of me. 
          	I am asking God to forgive me if I have done something wrong but get me out of this pain and the heartbreak coz it came from my most special person. Lol my heart hurts.
          	I try to show everyone that everything is normal. But it's getting exhausting. Somedays, i feel numb. Somedays, i feel so much hurt.