dear anyone who still cares,
i'm so sorry for falling off the face of the earth. life hit extremely hard and drove me deep into the ground. not long after i finished "fall," actually. i was 17 and had SO many ideas to build on the atm/benny series and my other stories. but before i could create that content for you all... let's just say, my imagination died with me.
a few years ago, i could have breathed life into all my ideas. over time, my mind brimmed with chaos and lost most of those stories. but i'm ready to take that power back. i refuse to let someone who only cares about themselves destroy me (already been done, maybe for the best) and everything about myself that i could be proud of. which is writing.
checking up on wattpad, i see that (among countless haters) there are so many people who have fallen in love with my work. who have felt like they loved ME for the stories i created, the same way i've felt for my favorite authors (on wattpad, it's @gracefulheretic and @hepburnettes; used to be clexaflowercrown or whatever her @ was, but she blocked me after calling her out on some ignorant shite).
i just want to say that, over time, i've seen many kind messages. when i write my explanation, you'll know why i didn't respond to every one of them... but please know, i'm sorry for not responding to everyone individually, there's just so much and i'm a mom of 2 now -- but i can't even begin to express how happy you all have made me. how loved i felt after 2-3 years of believing that no one in the world cared about my existence at all.
i've been fighting hard to regain myself. does anyone here know what a narcissist is? (if not, i'm going to explain it from my point of view soon.) a deeper question, does anyone remember the mentioning of a "first love" from ATM? all i have to say to that is LOOOOOLAJKJDNKJSNF.
i love (and miss) you all, even if you don't remember me. please don't give up on me. it might help me escape the nightmare i'm trapped in!