notuva

She's slipping away. I just know it. 
          	
          	She found new friends. She's talking to them more than us. 
          	
          	What happened to staying together as a group? We promised to stay together no matter what happens last year. Us five promised to stay in communication. 
          	
          	But now she's slowly slipping away to her new friends. 
          	
          	You choose them over me in AB. You talk to them more at lunch than our original group. You are/were one of us. One of our best friends. So why are you choosing them over us? Because we're considered "old friends"? Or is it because you think the second you find new friends, they're just better? 
          	
          	... 
          	
          	Why can't I just do better at keeping friends? What am I doing so wrong that I can't just keep them? I haven't ever kept a friend longer than four years, even if they're a best friend. Why do I always fail? What is so wrong about me that whenever they all lay eyes on new friends, I'm suddenly worthless to them, and I get tossed into the trash or I'm categorized as a "backup" friend to them? 
          	
          	... 
          	
          	Sorry... I'm just upset. She was one of my closest friends, and now she's sort of ghosting me and the rest of my group? I'm probably selfish to feel this way, aren't I? I just hope she doesn't toss us aside and doesn't think that we're just backup friends now, because the group I'm in right now are the best friends I currently have, and I don't want to lose them or for all of us to fall apart.

Athenagotsent2ftrs

@notuva ofc!!!! I would love to!!!!
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Fandom_Changer23

@notuva Lol, no. Ofccc tho <3333
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notuva

She's slipping away. I just know it. 
          
          She found new friends. She's talking to them more than us. 
          
          What happened to staying together as a group? We promised to stay together no matter what happens last year. Us five promised to stay in communication. 
          
          But now she's slowly slipping away to her new friends. 
          
          You choose them over me in AB. You talk to them more at lunch than our original group. You are/were one of us. One of our best friends. So why are you choosing them over us? Because we're considered "old friends"? Or is it because you think the second you find new friends, they're just better? 
          
          ... 
          
          Why can't I just do better at keeping friends? What am I doing so wrong that I can't just keep them? I haven't ever kept a friend longer than four years, even if they're a best friend. Why do I always fail? What is so wrong about me that whenever they all lay eyes on new friends, I'm suddenly worthless to them, and I get tossed into the trash or I'm categorized as a "backup" friend to them? 
          
          ... 
          
          Sorry... I'm just upset. She was one of my closest friends, and now she's sort of ghosting me and the rest of my group? I'm probably selfish to feel this way, aren't I? I just hope she doesn't toss us aside and doesn't think that we're just backup friends now, because the group I'm in right now are the best friends I currently have, and I don't want to lose them or for all of us to fall apart.

Athenagotsent2ftrs

@notuva ofc!!!! I would love to!!!!
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Fandom_Changer23

@notuva Lol, no. Ofccc tho <3333
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notuva

Will Solace is one of the most relatable characters that has ever been spoken about in this planet. 
          
          A sunshine on the outside. Happy on the outside. He's a bit bossy at times too. A sense of humor. Star Wars fan, ect. 
          
          ... 
          
          Has low self-esteem. Doesn't know when to stop and goes too far at times. Everyone has high expectations from him. He's trying to reach everyone's expectations. Nobody notices how hurt he is from stuff. He gives up when a few negative thoughts or comments takes over. Takes the blame for everything, even if it wasn't him. (All seen in TSATS. Some in TOA.)

Fandom_Changer23

@notuva Anything for you, Ava. <3
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notuva

@Fandom_Changer23 Of course. And thank you so much. I appreciate it a lot, Bre. <3
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Fandom_Changer23

@notuva I feel like sometimes, people really just need to talk without a filter, and I think places like this account, where it has absolutely no way to be traced back to you, are great places for it, because it eliminates the fear of discovery.  
            
            I understand your initial hesitance to unload your issues onto others, but I find that, as long as they're someone to be trusted, usually makes you feel almost lighter, though tbh I'm in no place to talk, as I'm terrible at talking to people, irl or online. Tysm for giving me a place to go tho if I ever need to.
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-_Lunar_Faerie_-

Hi!!
          This is your side acc right?

notuva

@Luna_Moonlark Alright! And thank you. <3
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-_Lunar_Faerie_-

@notuva Ohh Okay! If you do want to vent tho, I'm almost always available to listen. Will follow the other account !!
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notuva

@Luna_Moonlark This is more of an alt to talk about more personal topics I don't like to bring up on my main account. Sort of like a venting account, y'know? My side account that's for backup is @tinyuva if you wanna follow that account though.
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notuva

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Cause I'm a real tough kid. I can handle my shit. They said, "Babe, you gotta fake it 'till you make it," and I did. Lights, cameras, bitch smile, in stilettos for miles. He(She) said he'd(she'd) love me for all time. But that time was quite short. Breaking down I hit the floor. All the pieces of me shattered as the crowd(my friends) was chanting, "MORE!" I was grinning like I'm winning, I was hitting my marks. Cause I can do it with a broken heart. <3

notuva

@Fandom_Changer23 Thank you sm. I'll probably take you up on that offer eventually.
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Fandom_Changer23

@notuva that's terrible. I hope you're able to eventually heal from this and if theirs anything I can ever do, all you have to do is tell me!
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notuva

@Fandom_Changer23 Just rethinking my toxic bsf who sorta ruined my trust into making friends and getting extremely close to them. I'm okay right now, but she probably left a scar that won't ever fade away.
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