I wonder if I let my tomboy phase continue, kept my hair short with the side bangs and undercut id always get, I miss the kid who was mentally and physically strong who'd bloat and fight like a boy, I've been thinking about this for weeks and it's embarrassing, I'm pretty content where I am, but if I were a man I wouldn't be anything else. It's hard seeing my hair this long it hasn't been in years id always get it chopped to my shoulders and I felt him die the second I let it grow past doing my makeup everyday still trying to figure it out, trying hairstyles, I like looking back at those years knowing I hadn't a care in the world