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Saat 5:44,sabah imtahan var...yenə gecikməsəm yaxşıdı 

Ağlımda yeni hekayə yazmaq fikri var..

I don't even know where to begin. I thought I could handle this, that I would be strong enough to navigate the pain of losing you, but it seems I was wrong. My heart feels heavy, like it's been broken in a thousand pieces, and I can't seem to make sense of it all.
          
          You were everything to me—my comfort, my joy, my companion in ways no one else could ever be. I thought we had something that could withstand anything, but now it feels like it’s all slipping away, like sand through my fingers. The more I try to hold onto the memories, the more they fade. I keep replaying the moments we shared in my mind, but they only remind me of what I've lost.I keep asking myself what went wrong, where we drifted apart, but the answers are just as elusive as the love we once had. Maybe it was inevitable, or maybe we just didn’t know how to keep it alive. I wish I had the answers, I wish I could have done something differently, but all I have now are questions that I can’t seem to answer.
          
          What hurts the most is that I still care for you, even after everything. I wish I could turn off the feelings, I wish I could make the ache go away, but love doesn’t work like that. Even though we’re no longer together, I find myself holding on to the hope that someday, somehow, you’ll feel the same way again.
          
          But until then, I’m left with the fragments of a love that once was, trying to pick up the pieces and heal. I don’t know if that’s possible, but I’ll keep trying. I just wish things could have turned out differently.
          
          I will be ok for u...

Sometimes, people think that the other person has no feelings at all. I can accept everything, I can be helpful to you. But what I experience inside, no one knows. No matter how much I act like I don't care, in the end, I remember that I have a heart. I’m tired of playing the role of the person who can handle everything. Anyway. Drinking a bit is the best way to escape from our troubles, right?

the main question is: if she did not love, how did she look with loving eyes?
          Can a person who doesn't love do that?

Ölsem senin adınla,hiss edir mi kalbin beni?

Sana gitme demeyeceğim.
          Üşüyorsun ceketimi al.
          Günün en güzel saatleri bunlar.
          Yanımda kal.
          
          Sana gitme demeyeceğim.
          Gene de sen bilirsin.
          Yalanlar istiyorsan yalanlar söyleyeyim,
          İncinirsin.
          
          Sana gitme demeyeceğim,
          Ama gitme, Lavinia.
          Adını gizleyeceğim
          Sen de bilme, Lavinia.
          
          Bu son olsun..

Saat 6:23,imtahan var..vecimə de deyil

Getmə, həsrətliyəm, qal, sənə qurban,
          Ömürlük həmdəmim ol, sənə qurban.
          Əgər üz çevirib getsən uzağa,
          Qalmaz aşiqində hal, sənə qurban.
          
          Getmə, kimsəsizəm, qal, sənə qurban,
          Bu dilsiz, ağızsız, lal sənə qurban!
          Mənlə şirin danış, mənlə şirin gül,
          Ələnsin ləblərə bal, sənə qurban!