@nuengpl it's understandable how you feel, we are often uncertain in such situation and it feels like we are stuck in the loop of doubt. What I can say for sure is that I'm proud of all your efforts regardless of how small or big they seem to you, I know you are trying a lot mentally and physically, I'm proud of you and admire you for that. No matter what the outcome might be, I'll be by your side, always here for you don't forget ♡