nujo0m

I will be back. soon. 

the messages you convey thru your poems are beautiful:)) 

nobody comes home since you've left mona, im not someone important 

i guess i know my fault. i want proof that i am loved

monajo, i hope you were proud of me i hope i was enough i hope you forgive me i hope you remember me i hope i was the child you wamted i hope so much i start wishing. i wish you were here i wish you could defend for me from him i wish you would still live to see what could be i wish you were just here i wish so much i start missing. i miss you i miss your lap i miss your scent on your clothes i miss your warmth i miss your presence i miss having you in this house. it feels like we both accomplished all this just for me to be alone. what did we accomplish if you're not here anymore? im doing so much and people cant see and it feels like im not doing anything at all. i have become a burden. i was only ever a child to you. i really am alone. monajo. 

i acnt be vrying i cant be shaking i cant

times like these... when i desperately want to hear my mum, want to just have her with me again... i miss her. i miss the void she's left. no pain like this one. 

why is the silence this loud 

i really miss my mother appreciating me with a "good" and "shahbaash" so much. i miss her. 

i want to write i want to write I WANT TO WRITE