numyyys

I'm such a loser. Don't you think it'll be better if I'm just vanished from this world. I shouldn't be existed.

I can cry. I just hold it so I won't looks weak infront of everyone. I also have feelings that people thought it's never existed. I'm being mad for small things just to protect myself because I know I'm a sensitive person. 

I should realize it from the start. It's useless for me being clingy. Being lovely over and over again. At first they might like it because its special but after a while. They'll get bored,tired and annoyed. I should stop seeking for attention again and again. I used to be fine without all of the attention but when I start to trust people. They won't stay forever. Either they'll leave me or I'm the one who take a step back. 

Stop seeking for attention from anyone. They just don't fucking care about your life. People always think about their own life. They won't freaking care about yours. 

You won't feel loves when you can't love yourself.

What's the point of being smart? What's the point of knowing about many things? What's the used of skills when I'm just an ugly woman? 

I hate myself. I hate to see my picture bcs my face isn't symmetry like others. I'm ugly. Not cute. Freaking annoying. Little girl with a bad attitude. Got nothing special and still wonder why I'm still alive

Should I smile and act like I'm fine after everything that I've been through?