nurulnadhrah

Part 5.
          
          Tapi andak jangan risau, orang akan balik rumah andak setiap weekend pastu orang akan kemas rumah andak macam selalu kite kemas same same. Kalau ade kaklong dengan mimi, kitorang tiga orang kemas la sesame. Walau sebelum sebelum ni kitorang ade ngelat bab mengemas rumah, sekarang kitorang takkan buat dah macantu. Kitorang akan kemas bebetul mcmane andak selalu mengemas. Orang tau andak selalu bebel bila kitorang mengemas selalu tak sebersih tak sekemas expectation andak tapi we just love your bebelan, your mean words. We just love it! Andak, kalau you wanna know, for the record, orang tak pernah terasa hati dengan andak. Mungkin sebab drp kecik kot mmg dah tau character andak macamane kan. Sampai sekarang orang masih taktau macamane nak kemas katil andak nak lasi tegang the bedsheet like you used to do. Banyak sangat la benda orang nak luah. Tapi, it seems like. Semua ayat berterabur. Orang taktau nak cakap macamane. Andak, hari yg andak pergi tu, everything went smoothly. Semua dipermudahkan dipercepatkan. Lega kan? Lega tau andak. Orang bersyukur sangat sangat sangat sangat. I don't know what else to say. I just can't process my brain yet to terima the fact that you're already gone. 
          
          Andak, i miss you.

Part 4.
          
          Masa dekat prince court hospital, ramai kekawan andak datang sampaila ke surau sampai la ke liang. Semuaaaaaaaaaaa datang temankan andak. Tersangatlah ramai! Look at that, they're all love you. Orang syukur sangat ramai datang to visit you, and plus masa semayang jenazah pun ramai, kat kubur pun ramai. Betapa sayangnya semua orang kat andak. Lepasni dah tak sama dah kalau pergi jalan jalan makan angin. Dulu kalau ade family trip je, mesti orang akan tanye ibu "andak ikut tak?" tapi tu lah. Tak boleh tanye dah soalan macamtu. Your presence andak, memang penting. Sebab kitorang terhibur dengan sarcasm andak, dengan muka "ada aku kisah" andak, dengan rolling eyes andak. Tapi once andak puji, ya allah perasaan tu gila babi seronok tak terhingga. Sebab sangat susah nak bg andak puji. 

Part 3.
          
          Orang rase macam, yela orang tau andak dah pergi ke next level of the real life. Tapi still. Orang rase macam andak masih ade. Let me tell you this andak. You were the greatest uncle. You were the coolest ever because you never showed to the world how you treat us as your nieces. You used to give us present when we were kids. And up untill now. I think, for the couple months before you go, you ordered online something for mimi and me from overseas and you told me "tengok ni suka tak? Nak tak? Haaa andak dah order masa black friday haritu" andak, you tak pernah beli apa apa untuk kitorang yg murah murah. Lepastu you never tell people yg you bought those things for us supaya orang puji you and everything. You were so humble. Susah nak jumpa orang macam andak tau. 

Part 2.
          
          Surprisingly, i miss your mean sarcastic response everytime i'm asking for your compliment ataupun, everytime i'm asking for your opinion. Not to forget, your facial expression! Oh god, you were so damn mean! Andak, you left us on saturday morning. And bila dah malam and everything dah settle around 2 am in the morning, kaklong, mimi and me. We sat at the center of your living hall and we waited you to come back from work. We have waited till 3. Andak tau kan, orang dengan mimi dengan kaklong selalu tunggu andak balik keje kalau kitorang datang tido rumah andak. Tapi, you didn't come home. You were not even there. No sound of your car engine. No sound of you bukak the gate. No sound of your kunci before you enter the house. No everything! We waited for you andak. We waited. 

Part 1.
          
          The past three days, i've lost my dearest uncle who used to give me the unpleasant response. Knowing you're gone forever, it really crashed me to the core because there will be no more holidays together, no more kemas rumah together, no more dengar andak membebel sebab tak kemas rumah andak betul betul bila dah sepahkan. Andak, you were so cerewet you know? Sampaikan sponge basuh pinggan pun kene perah betul betul jangan bg soaking wet sebab nanti sabun basuh pinggan tu basah dan lembik menyebabkan satu pembaziran since sabun andak pakai tu sabun basuh pinggan jenis yg macam paste tapi keras tu kan. Oh goodness, i really don't know how to put all these together in words, i'm still in shock. I can't even find the right words the right term to say. Andak, i never showed you that i care that i love you. But i know andak tau yg orang sayangkan andak. Because you too never showed all of us yg you loved us tapi kita semua tau je yg andak sayangkan kita semua. That just how we roll right?