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@AiiiShiaa6Pat9  hiiii.... I'm so sorry for the late reply.. I haven't been well lately and university is stressing me out.. like frr... You might have heard the news of Liam Payne dying(if u hadn't, he's a member of One Direction) . I'm a big directioner... It hurts me mentally.. and still does.. I'm so lost and every other pain feels numb .. I don't know if I'll move on.. they saved me from many things... And the feeling that I couldn't do anything to save him guilts me.. I am better now.. because of that I didn't open Wattpad, social media or anything.. my fp is full of him and it hurts me even more... Now I am feeling somewhat better and saw you message 
            
            You were constantly thinking about me? ME?? That means a lot to me brooo... I wanted to text you too but I haven't been good for these days... I think we can converse more often from today... I also missed the conversations between us....
            
            And like you said, I got some friends at University. I don't feel as lonely as before.. our hopes weren't waste.. 
            
            How are you bro?? Is everything okay? How are you doing? I'm so sorry I couldn't reply more sooner or texted first.. I hope you are doing great...

@larriebabyyyyy just what I was thinking. It will haunt me forever. I don't even think I can blame the toxic fans for spreading hate. I'm too much broken to care about anything else. 
            I'm gonna sleep hoping everything is just a nightmare. I can't face any people right now

@obsessed_simper we were just talking about it...I was worried that it's going to affect his mental health a lot but...this...this is worse than my worst nightmare TwT 
            I've been crying since the morning and I just don't know to cope and process this.... I've literally got no words just anger and pain in my heart TwT

@larriebabyyyyy I'm not even ready to  talk about the hate he's been getting. I just thought that the fandom was falling apart. But now . .... No one understands this. I can't talk about the funeral (it fvcking feels weird) , or the reunion of the boys. My payno is not here. I don't want think about anything. It just feels like a nightmare. Wake me up soon. Just yesterday I was dancing and singing to the music videos heartfully. It's like the only thing that kept me strong is no more. One Direction was the only thing that pulled me out from self harming. Even the scars faded now. Now I can see the scars and I want scars. How will the boys take it? Will Niall feel guilty because Liam came to argentina for his show (I don't know if that's the only reason) or will the boys feel guilty for not being with him when he needed someone? Just yesterday I saw him in the snap stories and felt proud he was healing and why??? Why???? I can't even process it. Ill get nightmares for sure. Hope you get better.

@AiiiShiaa6Pat9 I love you too .

@obsessed_simper ilysm❤

@AiiiShiaa6Pat9 of course! 

@AnantRajput5 Done .

@Lipi_Stylinson Yep!!

@obsessed_simper Yess...13th anniversary in just two day!!!!
            I'm okay btw. But today's gonna amazaynn... Just watched love like this's music video...so good TwT
            
            Also it's Barbenheimer day!!!

@Lipi_Stylinson Been crazy! Academics , 13th year anniversary, and what not!! How have you been?