AiiiShiaa6Pat9
Heyyy :D I don’t even know why I’m writing this now… it’s been forever—months, maybe even a year :/—and I feel like I owe you a big sorry for disappearing :P I don’t know if you expected to hear from me again, but I’ve been thinking I should at least reach out <3
We didn’t talk much back then, just a few words here and there ;) but somehow it felt different. Short as it was, it clicked :D I can’t even say if that made us close or not, but you know how sometimes you meet someone and the vibe just flows without needing to explain it? That’s what it felt like with you :) Simple, but it stuck with me <3
Then life happened… I got carried away, the silence grew way too big :/ and suddenly so much time had passed :P I didn’t mean for it to go this long, but even in the middle of everything, I never forgot that little conversation <3 Weird how something so small can stay with you for so long, but it did ;)
So yeah… I’m really sorry for disappearing like that :D I don’t know where we stand now, or if this even matters to you :/ but if you’re open to it, I’d love to reconnect and talk again <3 And if not, that’s totally okay too :) I just wanted you to know that our little exchange really meant a lot to me <3
obsessed_simper
@AiiiShiaa6Pat9 I'm so glad we could talk again. I wanna be friends with you, because you're a great person and you're one of my first geniune lovely friend. I thought about you so much when I heard the song "and one random night when everything changes, you won't reply and we'll go back to strangers " . I really missed you. And when December 24, the starlympic event. My god, please tell me we can talk about it.
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@AiiiShiaa6Pat9 first, I'm such a people pleaser and will do anything to make it easy for them if it involved me. That's why I did an idiotic thing of copying the message for you to read it easy. That was stupid of me. You like one direction too? *Cries* We're really more alike . Yeah, Losing Liam was such a worst thing for me. Because, I was in the verge of s£lf-h@rming before one direction. Then in the beginning of 2023, I found them. They were my escape. I stopped it. I spent the rest two years of my life hearing their music, watching interviews, pins about them, memes, articles, concerts, compilations. And Liam, he felt like someone I was really close to because he constantly updated on snapchat. I still remember that night I went to sleep after watching his snap stories. I still cry. You're the second to assure me I'm not overreacting because of this. First one was one girl who's a directioner I met in Wattpad too. I got some friends yeah. That was on December - January starting. They ditched me on the university trip, made me feel insecure about my appearance and ignored me. So I cut them off. And sat with another girl who was alone too. But after some days, she really talked shit to me, drained my self worth down, talked about how fat I was to her boyfriend who was in another university. Slowly I cut her off too. Another girl befriended me, then asked me to reconcile with one of my ex friend, then she and the ex friend both ditched me. Then it was time for finals. I spent couple of months alone. In year 2, I think I've got myself a couple of friends who are now constant for two months. It's going good now. I really really want to hear you talk , tell me what has been shitty. I'm a good listener, that's what I've been told. Pour out your emotions, it'll get better. Tell me what's been good, great, sad, hurting or anything.
AiiiShiaa6Pat9
Now, I’m glad to hear from you—that you’re doing fine these days, not stuck in that grief anymore. :)
And yeah—can't I have the authority to think about you? Huh? :P It’s not even a that much—it’s just a natural feeling, you know. ;) And yeah…we can totally pick up the conversation where we left off.
Okay—so you’ve got some new friends, and I’m really happy to hear that. Really glad you’re opening yourself to new adventures, cuz life isn’t just about staying locked inside, you know.
And—about you being unable to reply earlier—it’s totally fine. Look at me, I'm no better. Life happens, we get carried away, and schedules get overwhelming. It happens to anyone. So don’t worry about it—it’s all good.
And yeah, university—it’s that one phase nobody willingly wants but everyone has to go through. It’s always a messy love-hate thing.
And that feeling of void? It kind of stays forever. Life’s been shitty for me too, so trust me—I get it.
Hey—it’s just as I said. Don’t ever worry about our friendship being forgotten. That won’t happen in reality. :) And of course, we can share socials (whichever you’re comfortable with).
I’m really glad you’d love to continue our chit-chats. Honestly? I missed you so much too. <3 And just curious—what was the reason you thought of me so often? ;)
Love you a lot <3
And I'm honestly thankful for this great-ass message from you. At least I’m receiving something thoughtful from someone…it means a lot...hahaha...Stupid me :P
