i had a big writing session with my diary just now , and while writing i realized a few things.
first, i am so so grateful to the fifteen year old me, who decided to start her own diary. so many memories perpetuated and ready to be relived at any time.
second, i listened to music while writing and further on realized that every one of the songs or compositions i love is associated by something in my life, be that good or bad. with that came another realization: that is why i love music so much, and listening to it even more - all of it, all the songs are the soundtracks of my life. every moment, every event, every place, every feeling has its own song. there is always music.
and third. i always used to get so sad and mad when things changed. for example, my sisters getting married, changing schools, some friendships ending, etc. i'm not a big fan of change, as i think you already guessed. well, i again, came to the realization that, no matter what happens, it all happens for a reason. eventually, i ended up liking the person i became after all those changes more than the one i was before them. so, honestly, no need to dwell on the sadness that comes with the sharp and sometimes not very turns that life gives us. it's going to turn out just fine in the end, i promise.
don't ask what got me into this mood , i honestly don't know</3
your loving guzi.