Syd ❤︎︎

hi to anyone who still opens wattpad 
          pt whatever of me complaining about being an adult 
          surprised i havent ended it yet lowkirk but its fine
          life is great just broke up w my girlfriend bc of my mental health and they're worried im trying to push everyone away so i can isolate myself and thats probably true but im also working every single day, so i dont got time to worry about whether im boutta end it all or not
          
          also apologies about no fanfic updates. again, ive been very depressed and its hard writing happy stuff when i wanna kms so im writing a love story (of my ocs) with a terrible horrible vile ending because i hate both of them (i love them i just like forcing my ocs to suffer) (its not romance angst dont worry they dont break up! the one guy just kills himself and then the other guy cant live without the first guy so he kills himself too awww i love my ocs i cant let any of them be happy) (i think im going through psychosis) 
          hopefully whenever i update next im not as mentally drained as i am rn love you guys bye 
          god im gonna be out of my teens in a month and a half im gonna be sickkkk

2026 is here and i need to lock in. come july i will officially be chopped and unc (20) 
          YUCKKKKKK 

i finally quit my god awful job that i was severely underpaid for
          i worked 94 hours in 2 weeks! 60 of those were from 1 week!! 
          i put in my 2 weeks and my (new, terrible) boss was disappointed because i'm the only manager he likes (we barely work together, because i can only close - idk how to open - and he NEVER closes. i think he hates women idk) 
          anyways i could ramble about him for hours but IM FREEEEE
          officially unemployed! (i already got another job offer that i will be taking. i cant stand being unemployed i hate that word) 
          its not a manager position though so hopefully i can equally balance school, work, and my hobbies </3 ty for bearing with me chat (i havent written ff in so long bro its bad) 
          i miss u guys!!! 

yall college is torturing me 
          i have a color theory class this semester and for the past week i've been doing nothing but cutting colored paper and i am so tired this is the longest project i've ever done i'm losing my mind 
          it might just be worse than when i stayed up until 9 AM working on my final project for 2D design last semester and then went into school without any sleep lol 
          anyways here's my monthly update, i haven't been able to work on any writing i'm sorry </3 i'll try to when i can... no promises though because holidays at my job are coming up so i'll be there every day until like 1 AM again lol 
          hope you're all doing well!!

um hey guys... 
          yeah i lied um 
          eremin story is NOT finished
          im so sorry its been like 2 years since i started "editing" it 
          oops #adultlifegoescrazy #ihatebeinggrown #imisswheniwaschronicallyonlineandwouldupdatewattpadwheniwasinspanishclasseverydaywheniwas15 #nowimemployedandcantdoanythingorlivemylife #endingit

meow meow meow meow meow 
          
          hi guys im working on chapter 5 of loveletters now.. it will be out before school starts back up trust  (around august at the LATEST)
          i mean if i lock in i can get it done in like a week but i got work unfortunately ... sigh
          anyways hope yall r having a great summer ! enjoy it :) 

cosplayimg for the first time in 6 months tomorrow! 
          i finally have a day off jesus christ 
          also guys omg im writing way tew much for this eremin fanfic chapter 1 is like almost 2k words it used to be like 600 .. somethings wrong w me (i just overwrite everything..) 
          whenever i release it i hope you're all okay with how much longer it is .. i wrote it 4 years ago originally when i was like 14 and i have a lot more creative freedom when it comes to writing now lol 
          itll be out sometime this summer I SWEAR
          my aot fixation is back in full swing so i'll be locked in when i dont have work! 

meow :3

TIKTOK IS GONE IN THE US CHAT.

hi guys! my timecard for the holidays was 82 hours! LOLOL 
          82 hours in 2 weeks is insanity idk whats wrong with me 
          i'd be there from 2/3 until 1 AM most nights and did not clock out! 
          anyways how are you all?! my classes started up a few days ago!!