oecyuji

experiencing skts and snos brainrot rn. its so bad i even started writing again. save me

wait but actually i really dont know if anyone will see this but thank you to everyone who read spider that shit was actually a mess and a majority of those chapters were just loona and kpop promo and its really humiliating (not the girlgroups/kpop but the fact that some of those chapters were pushed out for the sole reason to get someone to stream which is.. when it was an anime fic?? and there were definitely a handful of people not into kpop?? im so sorry) and when i think of it i cringe because there was really no plot and i was just rolling w it and theres a lot of things i shouldve written differently and the quality was very poor and i think you get the point i am very regretful but i am thankful there were so many people that gave it time. writing spider was definitely a highlight of quarantine and even though i absolutely despise that fic i am happy i met very nice people through it and i got to be apart of your life somehow. idk if that last part makes much sense but thank you :)) be safe  

when i think abt how spider - sakuatsu was 2 years ago it sounds like a short time really but when i think abt how much has happened since then i feel really small 
          
          anyways im not sure if anyone will see this or remember or reply but if there is someone, hi hru? 

it's been a year hi cloud it's jann ily idk if ur ever coming back tho </3

check out my new fic that i might ghost :(

was @/oecyuji 

yall i cant do this anymore i regret writing spider because its probably the reason why i keep seeing big ass spiders out of nowhere

i dont know how many ppl will see this but hi !!
          
          ( ^ ive been reading that sentence over and over again, something just doesnt feel right about it (^-^))
          
          i was bored and got curious so i decided to check and see what was happening on this account, i saw the messages posted on here and i felt bad LMAO
          
          i deleted spider mostly bc i didnt like it that much and as a result of not liking it i panicked when i thought people i personally knew could find it. a family friend was trying to find it and i dont know what i would do if she told my homophobic parents i was out here writing gay fanficton 
          
          the girl i liked at the time also got into haikyuu and i was TERRIFIED she would find it. just thinking about it now still makes me feel nervous lmao. i dont think she would like.. judge me for it? but i would feel embarrassed if she read it so
          
          theres i chance i might edit it? or just rewrite it as a whole? might change my username or something, try to not let anything too personal about me slip? but for now i think im just going to pretend it never happened
          
          i deleted like all of my social media apps, i only have twitter (tis a kpop stan twt account) now. it was mostly because my older sister watched the social dilemma and now shes like... going thru her "i dont need technology/the internet" phase. she seems at peace. shes healing. maybe i should go fully offline too haha
          
          shes going to university soon so i dont know how we're supposed to keep in contact. emails i guess? thats a bit lame tho
          
          im on a break from school as well, the last time i was on a break i wrote spider. i hope history does not repeat itself <3
          
          how are you???? tell me abt how ur life has been !!
          
          - cloud 
          
          

OK TO THE PEOPLE THAT ARE ASKING I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU SHE DELETED SPIDER  IM SORRY IM SAD TOO TnT

im sobbing trying to read the chinese spider going back and forth from google translate to wattpad TnT