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coming out with a new story 

I apologize if you see this.
          I hate myself so much, I hate my “new start” so, so, so much.
          I hate how I look, how I talk and move, I really need to fucking burn.
          Something I don’t understand is how my blades haven’t killed me yet, hoping that one cut after another will kill me.
          Maybe I need to finally do something to get these toxic thoughts to stop, or this pain to stop.
          Another thing is why do I have friends?
          I ruin the friendships all the time, I’m a dramatic loser that is so fucking easy to fool, I get so blinded by the thought of needing friends that I forget they hate me while I try becoming friends with them.
          I come home crying, and I wish... I could go back to Monticello, I would go through all that mental pain and anxiety just to see my friends again.
          Because I can’t make friends at this new school, I used to get out of bed thinking; “I get to see my friends today, this is why I need to keep going!”
          But why the fuck should I keep going now? I have nothing.
          Fucking nothing.
          I only talk to two people a day, but I should just fucking shut up already, I’m an annoying fuck that can’t handle there depression or emotions.
          I’m tired of lying so much, I’m tired of saying I’m good or I’m not bad.
          Because that’s all just fucking bullshit, another thing, I hate myself so much.
          My thighs are so fucking big and my body is, too. I hate my face and my looks, you don’t know how much I go through to just try and fix these things.
          If none of it works, I need to just give up and burn.
          I’m already giving up, I’m getting worse and I just have to suffer through it.
          This isn’t a cry for pity, don’t feel bad for me, don’t try to make things better or say something and drag pity into this.
          Because, I’m fucking done.
          Sincerely, Francis; The suicidal depressed bastard.

i need to fucking burn
          suicide
          suicide
          suicide
          might quit wattpad

i want to die :))))

WAH WRITERS BLOCK SUCKS DICK

coming up with a new story ;)
          bruise cream

omg guys, im so happy rn cjjppdhdyoyssg

heyheyhey, starting a new story called ‘satans grandchildren’ and its about all my demon babies and there backstories but it mostly focuses on my demon bby noah 
          ill have the characters out today 

kms, I seriously really wanna die, oofie

i want to die