Trigger Warning: Suicide
Lily stared at the scene before her in horror, everything was slow motion and she still remembered that day, if she could just be quick enough, she could stop it. The snow glistened and sparkled like dragon's scales and faerie's wings as it gently fell from the sky, the woods were joyous and alive, squirrels mingling with birds and tigers playing with pixies, Lily ran towards her younger self, desperately trying to catch up to her, but she was too late. Baby Lily stepped on the moving plate and fell, her parents ran to her, only to get shot by the poisoned arrows as everything her clan ever told her echoed through her head. "Murderer!!!!!" "How could you do that to your own parents, (c-word)!?" "F-ing a-hole!!!!!! Just die already!!!!!!!" "How could you be so heartless!?!?!?! Just k-ll yourself!!!!!!!! The world would be better off if you did!!!!!!!!!!!!" Lily clutched her head, trying to get it to stop, then watched as her younger self tried to revive her parents, but they only looked at her with love in her eyes, not blaming her at all, even though they should, after all, they were right, she murdered them, never mind that it was an accident, it was still her fault!!!! Her father kissed her two-year-old self on the cheek. "Thus with a kiss...I die..." he said as he and her mother died from the poison, leaving her forever.
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Lily woke up with a gasp and then let out a strangled sob. She couldn't do this anymore...it hurt too much, then she noticed a pistol under her bed, one that Ivan kept around for self-defense, and it was loaded. Ivan came in the room looking for Lily, frantically, just now noticing the signs she was displaying, only to hear a gunshot and for a fatally wounded Lily to land in his arms, gun and a letter falling out of her hand.
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