Actually, as much as I love Christmas, I actually dread its arrival and wish it won’t come. Christmas gets me into a state of euphoria, complete happiness; it’s the only time of the year I truly feel happy. It’s an overload in happiness that once it’s over, I’ll go into a deep state of depression again. It always happens. Christmas blocks out any other emotion except happiness that once it’s gone, I feel empty. It happened last Christmas. My birthday isn’t long after Christmas and as soon as it ended, I got groomed online like, near my birthday and after Christmas so I’m literally dreading it this year. Especially since all the family will be together, I’ll be subjected to emotional abuse. Don’t reply like you understand, please, even if you’re reading this. You don’t understand. I see stuff that I wish NO one could see. Yeah that’s it I’m going to my drafts </3